Wednesday, December 22, 2004

The Cycle

New work up... Havn't had a good day...

The Cycle

The cycle continues onward... as I slowly roll into the depths... Always succumbing to Fates grip...
Darkness envelops me as I fall into the abyss.... My heart writhes in pain, as Fate has found another way to deceive me... Finally things begin to change... and life slowly shapes to my path... and Happiness echoes in my soul... My friendships grow... and my courage is strong... I think that I feel the winds of love begin to blow in my direction... I am free... or so I think... Then the inevitable happens, and all the dreams I have fought for are shattered, and the truths in my mind are lost... I hate this... this cycle of mine... It has excited for years... but I cannot defeat it... I cannot change Fate... for I am merely a pawn in this game of life... I give my heart and soul to the people I care about, for nothing in return... and receive only pain from them... I always thought that hope lived in them... that They would be my wings.... but as each cycle rolls by, the truth seems obvious... it is in the darker stages, the beginning of the cycle, that those loved ones look out for me... They are there to bring me to the light... but as the wheel nears its end, they are nowhere to be found... not beside me... Emptiness... that is what I feel... I want to show my love to these people... yet a simple gift cannot supply that yearning... and even then, a bitter emptiness waits for me just around the corner... Love has been lost and forgotten.... and Friendships that were once blooming begin to wither... until the cycle calls for them again.... I feel betrayed... betrayed by myself... for how I could be so foolish... so na├»ve... I trusted them, but they do not share my feelings of compassion... I am but a pawn that they can control, for I will bed to their every whim... in search of favor... only to find an empty friendship after the deeds are done... I am a fool... Foolish enough to believe that I still have a chance with the love of my life... Foolish enough to believe that things have changed... because they haven’t... They never did... I’ve just adapted to them. And people come and go from my life... friends and foes alike, and for every foe gone, another takes his place, and for a friend lost, a shell to breed false hope. For every day that has passed... I have learned and forgotten the one truth that shall always follow me... I do not belong in this world... and I never will...


Sunday, December 19, 2004

Just venting...

Well... I FINALLY wrote something new... it took a really shitty weekend... but I finally wrote something new...

It doesnt really have a title, but I'm happy to finally write something, maybe I'll get back into a streak again.

Darkness deals another blow...
And Tears fall down my empty face...
Helpless in a pile of snow...
Trapped inside this place...
I thought things well going well...
That life was going my way...
But once again the world is hell...
Each and every day...
I’ve failed to bring a victory...
I’ve fallen to despair…
I’ve lost my sense of destiny...
In Fates diabolical lair...
Another day of misery, oh how can It get worse?
Yet its just another peril you see, in my oh so wonderful curse…
It's haunted me since I was born, it almost killed me then…
It's followed me through agony, time and time again…
Fall deep into the void...
Into the depths I go...
Now is the time you give me grief
Now is the time you show...
You push me around like a raggedy doll...
You slowly tear my wings...
And laugh at me for all I do...
In any and all things...
And as each season rolls along...
The grief returns again...
They try once more to make more wrong...
Make me a shattered man...
Anger is the power of rage...
The Fire held inside...
To let lose the monster from his cage...
With Raging Fury flied...
So now I lie in Crimson snow...
Freezing in my sorrow...
Toiling every second away...
Not hoping for tomorrow…
Nothing good will come of me, no matter how hard I try…
Pain rears its ugly head every time I pass on by...
But with every curse, a hidden blessing hides from normal view...
That helps to break the spell by whatever it’s supposed to do...
And while I’ve gone to hell and back, I have this blessing too...
And if I really had to say... I’d say that blessings you...
I’ve said this fifty thousand times… and I will say it once more...
You’re the key that’s gotten me to open up the door...
To a better world, a better place, a better way of life...
You healed me of my painful wounds… and eased me of my strife...
I’d probably be dead if it weren’t for you… or at least be very lost...
And someday I will repay you no matter what the cost...
And while we’re face to face much less... and now there’s no more love...
I still dream that you and I shall fly in skies above...
Friendship is my purpose now... to do the best I do...

I shall not let this happen to thee... and this I promise you.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Downtime

For anyone who's been reading, just letting you know that I'm having comp issue. Apparently I've got a virus I have to take care of, so I won't be able to update (Im on my dad's laptop) Hopefully Ill get it fixed and be back soon

***UPDATE***

Everythings working now... and to top it off, I FINALLY have windows xp again!!!!
I havn't really written anything in a while, but I'm getting there... I'll have something up soon!


Tuesday, October 12, 2004

New Work

I have new work... one of which is VERY important... one is just a little boast I did for English

English Boast

I am Matthew, Brother of Rathios...
I am Lord of Chronia, and Rival of Fate...
Son of Dynedockia, and Dreamer of Destiny...
Lover of Mana, and Master of Time...
I have slain the corruption of K'wal Na'z Theli...
A Dreaming Bard of Modern day...
I write the Chronicles of The Crimson Dreamer...
Wielder of ShiTe’Ku and the Wings of Time...
I shall sprout the seeds of Destiny...
And soon fulfill my prophecy!

And This... This may be one of the most important pieces I write... I am pretty sure that this is going to begin my book... It won't be the actual beginning of the storyline, but it is a Poem that sort of summarizes the Legend, and how it comes true in my story... well here it is!

The Prophecy

Behold the signs of Ages Past...
When Chronia unites at last...
A Hero shall rise above and lead...
And jealous brother toiled with greed...
With strength and spirit he will fight...
To try and make our future bright...
But brother's envy shall consume...
And bring a Dreamer’s Fate to doom…
A prophecy from days long passed…
Of a Man with power unsurpassed…
Who shall break the Curse of Kwa’l Na’z Theli...
And set fourth Chronia’s Prophecy…
From ancient past... a Blade Of Old…
And with this blade, a story is told...
Of hidden power buried within...
For only those devoid of sin...
A Mighty Blade the Dreamer's Built,
With a Crimson Eye, and a Silver Hilt...
Heavy to any who try to wield...
But to Chosen Few, this sword shall yield...
If the wielder's blood should spill...
The weapon's thirst for sin shall fill...
And if the bearer holds such blight...
The Blade shall present its hidden spite…
Malediction begins with just a drop…
Upon the Blade… but it won’t stop
A curse bestowed on evil’s bane…
For only their broken shells remain…
A fallen being devoid of soul…
With only one thought to keep them whole…
The last of the wielders before they attune…
Emotion, and thought, their minds will consume…
Wandering puppets, lost to the blade…
As they drift through the ages, and memories fade…
The soul shall dwell inside the sword…
Never again to be truly restored…
But all is not lost for he who shall fall…
For the Chosen one shall answer the call…
A Dreamer from another world…
Shall find his path as it unfurled…
And with the Seeds of Destiny…
Shall find this Blade, Kwa’l Na’z Theli…
With the purest of heart… and A Noble Dream...
A Fallen Hero… this boy shall redeem…
A drifting soul shall no longer mourn…
As the Crimson Dreamer shall be reborn…
Beneath the ashes, the curse shall break…
And a sleeping spirit shall awake…
Ancient power shines anew…
As The Crimson Blade… Shi’Te’Ku
With strength enhancing every trait…
And the long sought power to topple Fate…
...The brother shall go and search the stars…
And lose the name Dynedockia…
Fate shall leave behind his scars…
And begin The Legend of Chronia…


Sunday, October 03, 2004

New Work

Just Adding some stuff that I wrote... enjoy:

The wind echoes in my soul… as another night goes by… Another night without hearing your voice… and seeing your face… Day after day pass into oblivion… and I can no longer see you anymore… The encumbering boundaries of life have stretched us far apart… and now I can only imagine a whisper… an echo of the past… Calling out your name… as each passing moment drifts by… I can feel my heart longing to those days long ago… when seeing you was nothing more than the turn of a shoulder… but now I can feel you slowly slipping away from me… Each day I wait… and hope that today I will get a new opportunity… but as every chance presents itself… I am cut short… due to the burdens you hold upon yourself…however all is not in vain… for there are many other faces that have found their way to my eyes… many friends, both old and new now walk beside me… and I with them… but as the sands of time blow by… I wretch as my heart slowly splits in two… as one side yearns for you… and those days long ago… and the other stretches out for the future… and those who meet my eyes these days… I do not want to make a choice… and I will not forsake either… even if it tears me apart inside… I will not see my companions fall… not when I can be there to help them back up… I do not care what stands in my way, or what may happen to me by doing so… They have stood by me far to long for me to abandon them… Battered and bruised I still stand tall… waving a banner of Chronia, and singing my Dreamer’s song… standing before a setting sun… and as that glimmering sun sets, a crimson scar stretches across the horizon… all is quiet as the wind whispers across the sky… and in this place, I stand alone… for no one else can stand behind a banner of Chronia… not here… not now… not yet… So as I make my stand here alone… In another plain, I am with all of you… my team mates, my companions, my friends… As we live this life together… sharing the moments we have, as we forge our memories… Standing together as we find our hopes and fears… laugher and tears… The moments where we triumph, and fall gracefully to defeat… Times have finally changed… and this world slowly begins to travel forward… away from the blights that I have faced in the past… towards a brighter future… for me at least… and while there are those who still drive me towards that fading darkness… I shall always push back, I shall always resist… The future is still clouded in the deep for me… Fate has given me a chance… and many possibilities have stretched out before me… and I feel that he is not forcing me down a path... It feels like I can finally choose my way… I broke the chains of Fate long ago… but I think he has finally released me from his grasp… Yet I still find my own way back to him… Perhaps the brother of Dynedockia has not been lost to K’wal Na’z The’li… I can feel the sands of time slowly drifting by, as we grow another year older… and while many a thought have drastically changed to my favor, there are still thoughts and emotions that drag me back to darkness… I am still alone… No matter how better things have become… I can still feel that emptiness eating away at my soul… As agony beckons… and many around me turned to embrace their loved ones… I am left with the pain of an aching heart… All I can do is fall to my knees… and look up to the midnight sky… cold and helpless as the stars watch upon my misfortune and laugh… Though light years away, they are but a nails length apart in that velvet strip that looms above the horizon… And while that is a pain I have learned to tolerate… It still brings tears to my heart from time to time… but I still look up to those stars, and dream of a day when this will be all but a memory… and these burdens of mine will cease to exist… and what painful memories still beckon shall be overshadowed by the happiness that all of you have brought me… When all is said and done… and we have said our goodbyes… and the time for our paths to separate is upon us… I know that somewhere down the road they will converge again… I will see you again… and the friendships that were thought to fade away shall rise again… and be the beginning of another age… As I slowly wander into the autumn wind... and as the falling leaves drift by... I reminisce… to a simpler time… when I was lost in a whirlwind of emotion, of love, of hope, of pain and despair, and the seeds of destiny were sewn into my soul… and as I open my eyes to another setting sun, I still look to the stars, as they slowly light the night sky, I know that I shall never regret… I shall never give up, and I shall never forget… I shall never forget the days of euphoria… and the nights filled with tears… I shall never forget the friends I have found and lost along the way, and the rivals I have made to drive my self forward… I shall never forget the memories and moments we all have had… and most of all… I shall never forget you…

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Just something I wanted up...

This is just something I wanted up here... It was unnamed... but it's the longest piece I've ever written... and I think it deserves to be up here...

A Alternate version of the Transformation from Human to Chronian

That day shall cross my thought for an eternity… This world was peaceful… Life was just dreaming of another world… of my wildest fantasy come true…. Of Destiny as my heart and soul had told me… yet somehow in one night… that would all forever change… with just a simple flash in the sky… The dream that made my life came to an end… for this was no longer just a dream. As another day went by… nothing was different, out of the ordinary. Then I saw it… a strange light coming from the sky, and no sooner did it fade came the violet spheres of energy, hurdling down from the heavens and crashing against the ground around me. The earth quaked beneath me, and I was thrown aside from an upheaval in the ground. The moment came and I was able to flee… Before the next barrage, I turned around to the ruins in front of me as Fate came crashing down that night… The clouds were torn apart and my aggressor was revealed. Massive ships floating in the sky, and with the spinning of machines, a purple glow resonated from the massive giants in the sky. I did the one thing left on my mind… I ran like hell… Millions of lights came down to the earth, both white and purple like tears in the night as I fled from what would be my slaughter…Soon more of this energy was hurdling towards me. Not from the sky, but from behind me. Fear floods my mind, and in the deepest darkest corner of my mind… I was excited… for somehow I realized that this might be the beginning. The only question was… of my salvation, or my destruction? What little time I had to my advantage was running out… The more I ran the more I believed I was facing death… there was no change in me, no new feelings other than the exhaustion and fear from the incursion behind me. There was no Magical transformation… no… it would seem that my fate would be at the end of a blaster… As what hope I had faded… I slowed down… this is where my end would be… my dreams shattered, and my will broken, I stopped and awaited the wave of death hurdling towards me… I turned around to face my ruin, and as these strange men came closer towards me… they raised their weapons… and fired… I watched as the spheres of energy closed in and await my bitter end… Then something happened… something that I would never have expected to happen… A light flashed in front of me… and I fell backwards, almost blinded from the blast of light in front of me. I opened my eyes fearing death had consumed me… yet to my shock this was not the scene before me… I was still alive... somehow, unscathed. I stood up and looked around… The men, the ships, even the beams of energy… everything was frozen! It was if time had stopped moments before… I was puzzled… and as I turned around… It couldn’t have been… but it was… everything came into place… There before me was all the meaning, all the purpose in my life… the Sword that forged my dreams... and crafted my destiny… The Blade of Dreams, Shi Te'ku. I was frozen, as if its power had stopped me with my adversaries… This was my reason to live, to dream, to fight… It was beautiful… more beautiful then I had ever dreamed… A Silver Blade with a series of Crimson Gems running the length of the sword. Upon the Blade was a Crimson Hilt etched with ancient Chronian Runes. In the center of the Hilt was a strange Stone… it appeared to be nothing but an obsidian rock, but only I knew the true secret that lies within. I looked upon the blade… It was as if I was staring at destiny… My mind raced for an eternity, and every second seemed like an eon… I knew now… this was my time… I slowly reached out for the blade… every moment my hand came closer to its grip, a strange feeling passed through me… warmness. I finally clasped my hands around its Hilt and glared directly into the Black center of the hilt… as soon as I gazed upon it, the stone split down the middle and opened revealing an emerald eye very similar to the color of my own eyes. I glared into the eye, not surprised by its existence, and it glared right back at me delving deep into my soul. This was the moment I had been waiting for all my life, and then it came, the end of my story… I raised the sword to the sky, and I felt a surge of energy, my eyes turned a deep red, as did Shi Te'ku’s ever watching eye. I could feel it all returning to me.... everything made sense. I could feel myself rising from the ground. Soon it was surging throughout my body… I was changing. I could feel myself becoming something completely new, yet at the same time, I felt like I was returning to the way I used to be. Memories raced through my mind. Ideas, thoughts, and dreams I have never conceived now became my own. A pair of wings burst from my back, and I could feel my own mind changing with this… The light receded and I landed on the ground. A winged entity… no longer the human that I used to be… no longer waiting for my destiny… I was no longer the dreamer… I became the ChronoHawk… Keeper of Dreams… Lord of Chronia I became… Hawk Dynedockia… the Master… of Time. I could feel the power surging through me… I knew what I had become… I drew my blade, and fixed my eyes upon the enemy in front of me. I knew the outcome… and positioned myself, ready to fight now… and with a mere thought, I released the grip I had on time, and return it’s flow to normal… The men staggered, as if they realized the moment they had skipped through. Looking upon their target… yet as soon as they realized what had happened, I could sense their feelings of surprise, of astonishment, and of the horror. Not knowing what to do, some of them fired upon me, I brushed the blasts aside, as if it was a barrage of common rubber balls. I closed my eyes for a moment, and raised my hand towards them, and then felt something… something unnatural... I could feel the adrenaline coarse through my veins, and a fire burned in my eyes… it was anger, an anger so great that I could feel the rage swelling inside me… the betrayal of my brother, of the corruption Fate cursed him with. All of these memories I had passed through my mind all at once… The Fire exploded in my heart, and I lost control… I could hear myself howl in the night as I dashed toward my foes… I raised Shi Te'ku and heard the screams of these men as I attacked... After approaching my first enemy, I made a forward slash, severing him at the torso. With unparalleled speed I sprung at the next victim; again, I slashed at the next soldier, slicing him in two…I shouted again, as I’d thrust my hand through the body of another soldier and ripped out his spine. The Cries of dying men echoed in the night, and I could feel the anger surging through me. My vision became blurry and I blacked out, all I could do was hear the screams of men, the splitting of bones and the sound of metal slicing through flesh. It was all too easy… I finally regained my sight, and looked around. What I saw was devastating. All around me where corpses, heads detached from their bodies rolling down the road from the wind in the night bodes defiled in the most excruciating ways. Piles of limbs, torsos, heads, and organs filled the road. I felt the blood that had splattered on my face from the battle… no this was no battle… not now it wasn’t… the tables had drastically turned… this was a massacre. Looking upon one of the bodies not mangled or ripped apart, I removed the armor from the broken man… yet to my surprise, and yet relief, these were not men. The skin was a bluish color, fangs decorated its jaw, and its eyes a bright yellow… These bodies belonged to Fate’s Demons, not men of Chronia. I had not killed my own people… I panted, still trying to overcome the encounter I had just experienced. I began to gather the corpses, and as I piled them on high, I was hit with another barrage of the familiar purple disruptors. I shielded myself with the body I had in my hand, and I watched as it burst apart all over me. I looked above to see the massive ships, towering over me. It was a pity that these beings still tried to fight, but I knew what I had to do… I slowly began to run… run towards the gigantic monoliths in the sky. As I ran, my speed began to increase, I felt myself running faster and faster… faster than any human had ever run, or ever would. I ran so fast that I could barely see the landscape passing me by… and at the peak of my speed, I leapt, spreading my wings and flapping them in the wind. The ground grew smaller and smaller as I soared to the heights of the Juggernaut in the sky. Using my Chonotomic abilities, I slowed down time, knowing the barrage I would receive in a mere moment. With a mere though time began to slow, the blaster turrets, already beginning to spin seemed to almost slow down, I braced for the attack as I approached the first ship. Very slowly, shots came out of the spinning turrets; fortunately I was able to dodge the blasts as I sliced through the base of the guns. Not wasting time, I stopped and focused…. Glaring at what appeared to be the eyes of the monster. I held Shi Te'ku in front of me, as all of the remaining weapons on board the ships targeting me… I still remained where I was, floating before them, Shi Te'ku at my face. Then in a microsecond explosions ripped across both ships! They began falling to the ground, considering their graviton generators were destroyed by the blasts I’d guess. As they fell the ships began to almost slide apart… as if it were cut! One could guess at how this could have happened, but I know the secret of the tale. The Ships hit the ground exploding at impact; I felt the wind surge by as if it we’re spirits being released from a curse. I dropped to the ground and slowly began to walk… walk away from the carnage behind me… it was over… and I was victorious. As I walked… I thought of the other memories that Fate took from me… Our father, our people… and my precious Chronia… Oh! How I longed to return to her! I came upon a massive rock and hopped on top. The stray blasts had destroyed so much… trees we’re broken, homes destroyed… people injured and killed… I looked beyond the void left behind by the demons and gazed upon a rising sun… As its light raced across the plain I realized something… This power that I have regained… it is both special and unique, but I must re-learn to apply it, for if I lose control, the repercussions could be cataclysmic… I watched as the sun slowly raised to the sky… my tattered clothes drifting in the wind. Shi Te'ku in my right arm pointed at the rock beneath me. My Wings spread in the air, swaying in the morning breeze. This was the beginning of Destiny… it had finally come. I faced a greater evil now... as I stared at sun, I saw the image of my brother, twisted and corrupted now… I then jumped off the boulder and slowly walked away from my brother… I would encounter him soon enough… It was over… for now.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

A New Age... Part Four

I haven't written much for a while... After losing something I thought up while talking to Angelina (Damn you DeadAIM!) I did manage to write a new poem for A New Age... I'm pleased with what I could think up in 5 minutes time... ^_^ It's not finished cas I'm tired (it's 11) but I'll get it done soon...
*UPDATE* Done! ^_^

A New Age: As The Hourglass Falls...

We join hands again in a familiar place…
And bid farewell to a leaving class…
But joining us now is a brand new face…
With unknown thoughts that will come to pass…
Lovers reunite… and friends meet again…
And newcomers find their way to our door…
We wait and we wait for the moment of when…
They can tell us some stories… and share with our lore…
We stand ready facing a whole new age…
With new friends to make, and new heights to climb…
It all begins with the turn of the page…
And the shifting of sands… in the chapters of time…
Time has taken us apart…
And time again brings us together…
But as the pessimistic say…
Nothing ever lasts forever…
The hourglass continues to fall…
There isn’t too much left you see…
Already people are hearing the call…
And starting the path to destiny…
It is joyful to see the familiar faces…
It is painful to know that it will not last…
And to know we will be in different places…
But now I can say… that it’s been a blast!
You’ve opened my eyes in a whole new way…
You’ve let me see the goodness in you…
My spirits are high on this wondrous day…
And I’m writing again… as I always do…
So what lies ahead in this brand new year?
Who will step forward and answer the call?
Who will fall backwards and drown in their tear?
As they sit back and observe the hourglass fall…
We’re all moving together… till the road splits apart…
And the crossroads we pass through set our separate ways…
We’ll all treasure these moments inside every heart…
A memory to last for the rest of our days…

Anyway I do have something I'd like to put up... although she's probably gonna get mad at me for putting it up... It was just an away msg... Although very depressing, I think she has some real potential... If anyone who's reading this sees her in the Hall, please tell her that Cas she won't listen to me!!! X_X Anyway, here it is... and I am impressed Elyssa...

Unnamed Away Message
by Elyssa Aurbech (sp?)
I feel myself drifting
Further from reality half the time
I don't know myself at all
Part of me doesn't even want to
I feel confused and alone mostly
I guess you could say im starting to give up
Very slowly this world is disappearing

It's just a start, but I think she has a lot of potential... SO TELL HER THAT!!!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

(It's me Javier, sorry its been awhile i promise im back on track!) As I laid my hand to the ground on the last rainy day in this world. I dropped the last thing protecting me on this world. It was up to the gods to detirmine my fate. I was brought my last view, The Loner. Who was my savior. I chased him my whole life to find an answer why? Why would my life be so signifigant? He cracked a wretched smile as i felt that all my questions were answered.
We felt born again to drift along on my own as two sperate souls sharing one goal... TO LIVE." Posted by Hello

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

My Mentor

Well... a little break from the ANA (A new age)
This is something I started writing a few months ago... and finally finished All I need is a name for the piece...
Here's to you Matt...
It's been an honor to learn from the best... ^_^

My Mentor (Named by and dedicated to Matt Sprotte)

My life’s journey continues it’s race…
But Now Arises a familiar face…
A man from days of forgotten glory…
Back when I began my story…
Back to an age when my dreams were just dreams...
When my heart was a hole... a void so it seems...
Before I saw the power I had...
Or the poet inside me... My writing was bad...
I was merely a Kid... lost in my tears…
With pain in my soul… haunted by fears…
But before I found love… I had an escape…
That was shown to me by a man with a cape…
He saw my potential… but I needed work…
And he stayed by my side when the others were jerks…
He taught me the ways of the people up high…
Who created new worlds in the blink of an eye…
An Adventurer’s fate could lie in his hands…
He’d decide their future… and give them commands…
To succeed or to fail in this game we play…
It’s life in this world… or so we would say…
But this game that we play’s not as hard as it seems…
As I focused the power that channeled my dreams…
I saw this world for what it really was…
Now I stand by his side… and it’s only because…
Of a man with the name that I call my own…
With the lesson’s he’d taught and the ideas he’d sewn…
Into my mind… and then they would sprout…
And I’d know what this creativity’s about…
I opened my eyes… and I set free my soul…
With the help of my mentor… I got out of that whole…
You set me down the path I take…
You gave me a chance to atone my mistakes…
You gave me the skills to continue along…
The Notes to sing the dreamers song…
So here’s to you my venerable friend…
Funny… and loyal to the end…
You’ll always be a mentor to me…
For you helped shape my destiny…
No one out there rp’s like you can…
King of the GM’s… my master… Matt-san!!!


Thursday, July 22, 2004

A New Age... Part Three

Well... I've been a little slow with writin lately... but I did manage to pull of something... It's a bit small, and Once I get a clearer idea with it, I'll probably add more.
*Update*
Added More ^_^

A New Age: Through Troubled Eyes

Each sees the world with their own eyes...
A point of view it seems...
To which we all shall live our lives...
and gaze into our dreams...
An uncommon sight exists in this world...
A vision owned by few...
A side of life with truth unfurled...
a Side you never knew...
Some say the world is a beautiful place...
Others say it's hell...
Except for those who've seen this face...
There is no way to tell...
What is the truth about our ways?
Are we Savage and cruel?
Or is peace closer day by day
and everybody's cool?
To know how to solve the riddle you
must seek these people out...
To find folks out there like me too
see what this is about...
Find the "losers" of society
who won't give up the fight...
With open hearts they'll let you see
Just whats inside this light...
To see this world another way...
To look through troubled eyes...
And see this world is not so grey...
Beyond Cerulean Skies...
Even when we reach our prime...
There are courses we won't understand...
but few of us will take the time...
to stop and try to comprehend...
What happens when we go and decide?
Take the path and see it through...
What future have we cast aside...?
Few if any will ever construe...
The other choice they might have made...
Be it good, or be it bad...
In most people's minds the thought will fade...
And forget the influence that they had...
To change this world with what they've done...
Really big or very small...
The difference between the whole and the one...
Who will open his heart... and in darkness... stand tall...


Friday, July 02, 2004

A New Age... Part two

My newest piece... Take This assholes!(Before someone gets offended... That comment isn't referring to everyone...heheh... ^_^;;)

A New Age: Seeds of Corruption

Life continues… as time rolls by…
With a soul to share… and wings to fly….
Always searching for something new….
Worlds to create… and things to do…
This world to me is a beautiful place…
But evil lingers beneath it’s face…
Corruption’s hands stretch so high…
From lowest lake… to starry sky…
In the hearts of man this darkness hides…
When man goes fourth and shows these sides…
The kindest soul can turn on you…
And take your heart and pierce it through…
This world is caught in violent debate...
They think they rattle the chains of Fate…
A society ravaged by hate and lust...
By abuse and drugs... by actions unjust...
Look down below society’s line...
The people on the bottom of the grapevine...
What happens to them if they wish to fly?
Their wings are broken... and some of them die...
From the cruelty and hate from the world up above...
While the rest down there have hearts filled with love...
But still we are ravaged... and still we are mocked...
Our worlds must be cloudy... and our paths are still blocked…
But still we will try to climb up those stairs…
Ignoring the insults… and returning the glares…
But I don’t see corruption when I look to their faces…
For we are the same in many many cases…
I look away from the anger, away from the hate…
For I am no longer bound by Fate…
No longer drowning in tears of despair...
I can see the people that existed there...
As I drifted through anger and cried to sleep...
Falling and falling into the deep...
Of the void that was making a pit in my soul...
And I would exist in that terrible hole...
I am a victim of corruptions child…
It took sanity… and made me run wild…
But now they see me another way…
Most of them are different today…
They see me as equal… they see me as me...
They see me as I want to be...
A lover... a Dreamer... a kid just like them...
Not a fool or a loser that they can condemn
But still some refuse to open their eyes…
And it is a shame that they won’t realize…
What I have become… and what I will be…
And the ideas and dreams they’d learn from me…
So go ahead and put me down…
Laugh in my face… push me to the ground…
You think you are winning… but you’re very wrong…
For I will still sing my Dreamer’s song…
I will rise up above you… and make you pay…
For the terrible things that you’ve done here today…
To you I may not be where I am…
Just the fool with the big mouth you continue to damn…
But I will assure you… your going to fail…
For I will still walk…and speak of my tale…
I could be on step one for all that you care…
But when I’m done everyone will want to be there…

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

I'm in the dreaming/emotional mood I get into sometimes... hehe... I saw some stars tonight too... I've been waiting so long to see them... I've also been thinking of what I might use for a sig... wrote this a little while ago... hehe - Whether I spend a lifetime with you in my arms... of If I die a lonely death... Know this... I'd give it all up... I'd die If I had too... just to see you smile... One more time... I Love you... and I always will... No Matter What... Given the right music I might end up crying... lol... well Back to dreaming... and stargazing... = D

A New Age...

I have finished a new piece.... hehe... enjoy:

A New Age: Not Yet...

A new age has come… and the world around me has changed once again… my life is taking an unexpected turn… Towards the society I once feared, I march… yet I am welcomed with open arms… an idea never thought possible in my mind… New friendships are born… and dying love is once again full of life… I have reached the first of my dreams… Life… I stand before people who once despised me… and hold hands with those who once feared me… Laughter echoes in the night… and I continue to dream into the mornings… every night, dreaming of Finding my faith… binding with destiny… and my love for Kid… as I always have… but not something comes to my mind… something new… something unexpected… something… wrong… I dream of the end… of the final moments of the war I will face when I return to Chronia… I see the final battle… I see… the final blow… as thrust Shi Te’ku forward into the belly of Fate… and as his corrupted form falls to the ground… as the battle around us ends… and the forces of Chronia stand tall in triumphant victory… it is the end…but I cannot see that… not now… not yet… How can I Dream of the end of my Path… when I have not even begun my journey…? I shake my head… yet it still drifts there… haunting me… I cannot look to the end… when I have not yet even begun… as I continue to wait for the day that my paths begin to combine… As I wait… I am faced with my curiosity… No one has told me of the Fate I dream… of the Path I have given myself… there are no signs… no visions… just a dream in my soul… What do I wait for? What is the cause of my journey….? What will the sign be… That tells me that Destiny has begun… and that I should begin my quest to find KwaL na’z Theli… Where do I go…? El’ Bah’Nok does not exist in this world… and I cannot hear the cries of the forgotten soul… but still I will go and search when the time is right… I will go to the ends of the earth and find it… but another obstacle now lies in front of me… My friends… my companions… the people I love… What do they say to my journey… to my destiny? What will they choose to believe… And the hardest thing to think about… will they come with me? For so many years… beyond the blindness of my pain… and my loneliness… this trial would be faced by me alone… but they were not here with me then… does the journey change now? Maybe this was not meant to be only my path… maybe it is the ever growing arms of destiny that have led these people to my side… Maybe it is for them to face too… in their own ways… It is too late for them to turn away… for their souls have intertwined with mine… at least I hope they have… My faith is in their hands now… what they choose to do, and to believe… will affect the story… especially one… Kid… Much of this rests on her…on her choices… on her beliefs… on her faith… So the fate of a Chronian rests in the hands of Humans… Being one of them… I find it ironic… that those controlled by time are linked to the one who controls time… So I must sit back and wait… and follow the currents of life… until the time is ready… and the true journey begins… I will not give up… no matter what happens… but I know this… If They are with me…. If She is with me…. If You are with me… I cannot fail…

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

I was bored so I re-did Shi Te'Ku, Now it's a little more like that way I visualize it... although it's still not quite right... oh well... = D Posted by Hello

Javier's gift


Ok everyone (Jav here) this is a little thing I had to do for my friend Shayla. She did all the artwork for my story Perfect Symphonies (which will be continued soon) So I decided to show some artwork that she does. When I scan my character artwork for my story, I'll post that too. (This is clism. A character from her story Black Ice. See the story at www.shaylart.com If you want the full sized wallpaper, contact me via e-mail) Posted by Hello

Javier

Should Have mentioned it Ealier... heh... Javier is going to be posting his work up on here now.... I'm having it so anything that has -Javier after the title is his, and if it doesnt have that it's me (Plus it'll say posted by Javier Guevara, or The Crimson Dreamer) well enjoy his work... And Don't take up too much space Jav... = P
Anyone else who has anything that they might wanna put up, just email me or im me... Well I've always wanted to say this...
- TCD out = P

ShI Te'Ku and KwaL na'z Theli

Well... Here is a Bigger Picture of the Blade of Dreams (Or the best I can do with MS Paint... = P) to the right. Is what it looks like in the beginning as the soul stealing KwaL na'z Theli, and on the left, it's latter version, ShiTe'ku  Posted by Hello

Monday, June 21, 2004

Perfect Symphonies - Javier


Choose to take the journey of self-discovery…

In a parallel world, but in similar times, the world of M’iel (me el) has a more laid back way of life (More forests, less cities, and relative peace.) Classic tales of groups of young kids who set out to journey and change the world are still told to the young. Enter our main character Toboe (toe bow A), who has always been enthralled by these stories. He decides to make a similar pilgrimage, but on his own accord. Of course it was easy for him to do it because he was orphaned since his parents died when he was seven. His brother Taita (tie sha) however, has lived with his aunt and uncle since that faithful day, when he was taken out of his mother when she was dying. (Toboe never lived with his aunt and uncle because they despise him, even though he doesn’t know why)
Toboe is all about making choices, whenever someone would ask for advice from him; he believes that you should never be bound to the words of a man who doesn’t know your true aura inside. He made the decision to go on his own so that his journey was his own passage (he hasn’t trust many people since that summer day.) His plans changed forever when he went to say goodbye to his brother, and he saw what awful things his relatives were doing to him. Toboe rescued him and let him choose whether or not he wanted to escape his life and go with him. After long thought, Taita decides to travel with Toboe and see the world for what it is.
Now as for me, I’m Vigo, (Veego) the narrator of the story (Don’t think that I don’t play an active role in this story though, I know your dying to see me in action.)
Enjoy the story for what it is and enjoy Toboe’s many adventures of the wondrous world of M’iel filled with magic, charm, and romance. Also remember what Vigo says, “No matter where your travels take you, you’ll always end up on top.”


Perfect Symphonies
Chapter 1

"Wake up Toboe!" A voice from far off called. It had to be his annoying friend lance, who always brought him away from his daydreaming.
"What do you want Lance?" Toboe said in a dejected way.
"Well, what I want is for you to get up off the ground and come to the forest with me so we can get our job done before the head mistress gets restless."
Toboe slowly rose from his once vegetate state, and then gently stroked his hair. He sighed knowing that today was going be another boring day in his meaningless life.
Lance and Toboe made there way into the forest to cut some firewood for the fireplace so that all the kids in the orphanage could enjoy some extra heat as spring quickly was dawning on the peaceful town of Almott. You see, Toboe and Lance are the oldest people in the orphanage, (with the exception of the head-mistress) so they took it upon themselves to be the big brothers of all the children.
Toboe and Lance chopped some wood and decided to go to the waterfall before taking the wood back. "I don't understand you sometimes." Lance said jokingly.
"I'm not sure I follow you." Toboe said.
"Well for starters, it's the middle of winter and you decide to go to the waterfalls. Also, it's dead of night and all you're wearing is a long-sleeved shirt."
"Nowadays, I don't feel things much. Inside me mentally and physically, so there's no need for me to use much needed clothes from the kids. Besides, I'm not going to go swimming; I'm going here to think about things.
"What could you possibly have to think about? There's not much to do in our life besides helping others, and running around annoying people."(How true)
Lance was confused beyond all belief. He thought that Toboe has been acting rather strangely lately. He's been a lot quieter, not as social, and he seemed to be depressed or that he had something important on his mind.
Now you have to be a little dense to not see what's wrong with Lance. (I will explain) Lance is a very plain person; he believes that all he sees is what is real. Sometimes, his "tunnel vision" constricts him from seeing the real problem within like in Toboe's situation right now.
"That's exactly it Lance! We don't have anything; our possessions are also the possessions of the orphanage." Toboe started getting exited in his reasoning
"So that supposed to make us happy?" Lance still didn't get it. (idiot)
"Well no, actually yes, it means that we aren't being manipulated by greed for more like most other people. There is only one thing that we possess, that no one else can possess."
"And that would be..." (His ignorance amazes me.)
"The freedom of our imagination, the freedom of life, the freedom of life. No matter what, no one can deprive us of that."
"That's some deep stuff Toboe." Lance finally got his thought.
"I don't know though, sometimes it's not enough. I just wish that there were something more to life than this." Toboe suddenly lost all of his excitement and started to fall into a depression.
"Come on now Toboe." Lance went over and grabbed Toboe's arm. He dragged him to the special spot under the water-fall. It was the special place that all the orphans would go to in the summer. They sat on a rock and thought hard about their life.
"You're lucky Lance."
'No you are the lucky one Toboe. You had your parents until you were seven. I never knew mine at all. They must have really hated me to just up and leave me like that." He began to cry.
6/21 to be continued

Pics!

I finally figured out how to put pics on my site ^_^


Let There be Freedom
Be Peace in This Land...
And I swear by my Dreams that
This Darkness shall end!
Fate is A Demon...
He'll pay for his crime!
And I'm not just a Dreamer...
I'm the Master of Time!!!!
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Saturday, June 19, 2004

New work coming

haha... I'll laugh if someone reads this before I change it... but what the hell...
I've got a new poem on the way... Ill keep the name disclosed for the time being... I dont want to spoil my own fun... *cocks the gun* lol... well anyway... This is probably my favorite piece so far... I hope you all like it when it's ready!

*UPDATE*
Ok it's ready!

Kid...


The clock ticks forward day by day…
And my mind is still so far away…
In the world at which I want to be…
To continue to forge my destiny…
But something crossed my path in a way…
That brought sunlight to a cloudy day…
In my aching heart deep down inside…
In the old void where my dreams collide…
There were no more clouds and no more rain…
No more sadness and no more pain…
So now I am free of that terrible place…
And who do I thank? Who’s the one I embrace?
The girl who showed me the stars tonight…
And helped me escape my lonely blight…
Who is the girl that I’m talking about?
Take a wild guess… you’ll figure it out…
Called an Angel by them for the things that she did…
But to me, she is rascally known as “Kid”…
Kid I’ve admired for so many years…
As I recovered my soul, and overcame fears…
She has changed my world, the girl that I love…
My only true link to the stars up above…
The world is a desolate place without her…
But she is the answer, she is the cure…
To the worst of pains; a broken heart…
Cracked open wide… and torn apart…
With her laugh and her smile the pain is gone…
And with that the darkness withers to dawn…
I dream of a day when you’re by my side…
Hand in hand on our wings we will stride…
It is only a dream… as much as that sucks…
The idea causes my emotions to flux…
But again Kid is there, and she has the brass…
To give what I needed… a good kick in the ass…
She woke me up from that evil nightmare…
And awoke me into a place where…
That dream doesn’t matter if comes or not…
Because our friendship exists and that matters a lot…
I drift through the ages dreaming of you…
With soul so pure… and heart so true…
And of the day that finally she…
Will find her wings and fly with me…
From a lonely world that writhes in pain…
Away from the clouds… away from the rain…
To an Azure sky… and a Golden sun…
This dream to me has more than begun…
It is real to me… as the life that I live…
The air that I breathe… and the feelings I give…
So what do I see as I turn to the sky…?
I see us… up there… flying high…
With the wind in our faces… and the stars up above…
The clouds at our feet… and our hearts filled with love…
We’d race across oceans… We’d drift in the breeze…
We’d soar up the mountains… with our souls at ease…
Nothing else matters when I’m at her side…
Just the song in my heart… and my eyes opened wide….
To the dreams in my soul that one day we may share…
In this whole new world that I’ve started to dare…
To dream of a future… where Fate is dead…
What a beautiful thing I’ve got in my head…
You’ve taught me so much in the last 4 years…
But there’s one thing you taught me that brings me to tears…
No matter what happens… I believe in you…
Because the way that I see it… Dreams really come true…

Monday, June 07, 2004

The Beginning... (the conclusion to The End)

After getting a wakeup call, I wanted to finish The End in a more... positive way... Im sorry to everyone who thought I was feeling really bad... I just got caught up in some stuff... hehe... Well thank Initial D, and Telling off that old bitch (Haha, ask me about it, it was nice) for getting my mind off it, and then gettin yelled at to finally break the chain... Thanks kid...

Heres Part One to prevent confusion

The End...

I stand atop the highest plateau… waiting for the clouds to open… I think I can see them… the stars…I… I have spent my lifetime waiting for this day… And now its finally here… the void inside me is going to close… close forever… My thoughts… my dreams have brought me to this day… and now it is time to say goodbye to an empty… lonely world… As I look up… I can see it… the break in the clouds… a crack to the outside world… a doorway to freedom… The time is right… and I sprout my wings… and take off… The clouds still roar with thunder…and lightning still dances across the sky… The time will soon come when I enter the clouds… and the maelstrom above… It is then that I must concentrate… The black ground below slowly disappears… and the grey mist of the clouds surrounds me… as I continue to fly upward… I can feel the winds getting stronger… but I must press onward… The darkest part of my world is here… it is the core… the center of my confusion… my chaos… it is what keeps me from escaping… until now… I can see the opening… and as I race for it… I am chasing by lightning… a demon refusing to let go of its vessel… Closer and closer I get to reaching my goal… the strength of endless dreams and desires fuels my raging fury… it is so close to me… suddenly for the first time in a lifetime… I see the light of the sun… I am almost there… I am almost free… but the gap slowly begins to close… I must reach it in time… before I am too late… Energy surges through me… and my wings press through the gale winds… I am going to make it! I feel warmth inside… The light passes onto my skin… And I can feel the warmth of its light… as I pass through the barrier… and before I can look up... Time stops… My hand reaching out… to you… you the one who has made it possible… I can see you there… it is too bright to see your face… but I can see your eyes… staring back at me… I am free I know I am… I see your hand motion towards me…but then my eyes shut… I cringe in pain… confused… I remain there frozen… unable to move… only my eyes… and as I look down to the horror… A spear impales my chest… a spear with the emblem of… an angel… it is… yours… unable to breathe… I can see myself beginning to fall… my body falls backward… towards the barrier that is the void… the last of you I see… is your face… no longer shrouded in darkness… smiling… laughing… as you walk away… this world disappears.. and the only things I can feel inside are the surge of pain from my heart… and the tears falling from my eyes...
I see the sun… the oh so beautiful sun… rising into the sky… just as the opening to what would set me free… closes in front of me… I continue to fall… I leave behind a trail of dead feathers… and tears… my wings slowly begin to wither and die… and the winds of the maelstrom… throw me across the plains… soon the clouds stretch across my view… as I break through their grasp… feathers chaotically drifting in the winds… my hand still reaching out… as I hit the ground… with a skull shattering blow… The plains roar with thunder… and it begins to rain… my body is broken… my soul is shattered… my wings are lifeless bones on the ground under me… but I feel nothing… not the cracks in my skull… not the raindrops falling on my face… mixing with the tears of blood falling from my eyes… just the pain of a spear impaled through my dying heart… and Fate… watching me from above… laughing… but I am not to die this day… my malediction is much worse… I am doomed to exist for eternity… with broken bone and shattered will… glaring up at the sky… as it rains down upon me... my hand still stretch out… out to you…

and Part II - The Beginning...

It’s time to open my eyes. There’s more to this... there’s got to be... There’s more emotion elsewhere... and I’ve seen it... and I’ve brought it back with me... There is so much pain... but I can’t let go... not of the world I created… even if I never see it... it’s still mine to command! And with that I make another choice.. with a little yelling of course.. It’s time to let go of this spear... and forget the past... its time to start living in the future... the way I did back then... and so I place my hands on this spear that I have driven into my soul... and I grasp it firm... and with all my strength... well lets just say it FUCKING hurt! Anyway... with that... I could feel my body changing... and the void around me... the rain stops... and the cracks in the rocks begin to slowly repair themselves... so this is truly my heart... As I feel my body once again I slowly make my way to my feet... and with a snap of my hands... the pain is gone... there is no more hole in my body… and the cracks in my skull are gone... Everything makes sense again… and now I realize... I must go. If Fate won’t give me a way out... and with a mere thought, the feathers on my wings again flutter in the wind... I’ll just have to make my own! And with that I give myself a running start... with the speed of Hawk Dynedockia I burst into the horizon... It’s time... I know now that the time is right to leave this place... my wings spread and my eyes focused on the sky above, I speed up the largest plateau... the same one I began my journey on... and with my last look of the plain below me, I took off into the maelstrom.
The winds do not falter my speed… as I race through the clouds above... I can see the end... the barrier... Fate’s hands are stretched out before me... With the thought, the spear that had pierced my body comes to my hand. The sorrow and pain this whole void, in essence lies in that spear... and with all my strength, of the powers of every moment in time... past... present... future... combine into one, I thrust it forward into the clouds in front of me… and the hands of Fate Shattered today... I fly through the barrier out of this void... victorious... As I take the first breath in a brand new world, the spear still flying forward in front of my transforms... out of the shadows, and out of the sorrow... comes the greatest blade ever forged... the reborn blade of KwaL Na'z Theli... Sword of Dreams... Shi-Teku... and as I grasp my forgotten blade... I feel my soul deep down inside... I am Chronian once again... I have won my first battle... in the war against Fate... but I do not stop in the world above… I press onward… into the sunny sky… into the stars… Into space… I dream once more! Towards Chronia! Towards Destiny! And I have you… the one who threw that spear… no… you who have given me the start I needed so many times… when my mind is caught in the snare of pestilence… you are there to let it loose… time and time again... thanks kid...

Sunday, June 06, 2004

My World...

New work... and if your worried, Im not depressed or anything, though my writing would say otherwise right now...

My World...

There is place far away from here… a place beyond any horizon… beyond your sight... beyond your comprehension… It is a dark place… an endless plain of black rock… cracked and jagged… and above, only clouds… dark grey clouds with lightning coursing through them. It is always raining… There is nothing… nothing at the end of this horizon… nothing… but one… a dark figure… soaked in water… in tears… in blood… Frozen to his soul… as he stands against the rain pouring down on him… This darkness… this pain… this… is the void… this… is my world… and that figure… with tears in his eyes… and a fist full of blood… is none other than the Crimson Dreamer himself… I am that man… that shell… with nothing inside me but this world that I see around me… Many times have I tried to escape this place… but as I break the boundaries of it, Fate intervenes… and I tumble back down to this dark earth… There is nothing here… and no one… so I much walk these plains for eternity… with nothing to set me free from this burden… but wait… in a flash of light this world is gone… and I am in another place… your world… where I am with all of you… my friends… and we talk… and we laugh… and we exist… together… l stand here too… facing the sunset… with wings drifting in the breeze… hand in hand… with the one I love… but then another flash of light… and I am in a world I have never seen… standing before Fate… My Crimson Blade in hand, ready to fight the battle that is my destiny… but my eyes open… and I am once again in the never ending rain… they are all just echoes… in my mind… These are dreams… dreams that are never going to come… love that will never blossom… destiny that will never come to pass… This is the world that I must live in every day… with the tears of loneliness in my heart… and the blood that bleeds from my soul as I am battered down by society… It is so cold here… and there is nothing to keep me safe… to keep me warm… to keep me happy… I have lost it all to Fate… but it does not stop me from dreaming for another day… To stand up tall in the pouring rain… cold… sad… and lonely… and Dream of a place where this world does not exist… Where I hold my beloved in my arms… and where I truly fly on my wings of time… but then I wake up from the dream… and the day begins again… There is nothing left and nowhere to go… there is no more song in my heart… there is no more skip in my step… just the aimless path that I walk in this place…. Hoping to find something… or someone… so each day passes me by... another lonely day is over with… and a new one is here in its place… Think not of this place… but that shouldn’t be too hard for the oblivious children of earth…

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

The End...

I just finished another piece... I don't think a lot of people are going to like this one... but here it is... A good song to go along with it is No More Words... by Ayumi Hamasaki The first minute or so of it specifically

The End
I stand atop the highest plateau… waiting for the clouds to open… I think I can see them… the stars…I… I have spent my lifetime waiting for this day… And now its finally here… the void inside me is going to close… close forever… My thoughts… my dreams have brought me to this day… and now it is time to say goodbye to an empty… lonely world… As I look up… I can see it… the break in the clouds… a crack to the outside world… a doorway to freedom… The time is right… and I sprout my wings… and take off… The clouds still roar with thunder…and lightning still dances across the sky… The time will soon come when I enter the clouds… and the maelstrom above… It is then that I must concentrate… The black ground below slowly disappears… and the grey mist of the clouds surrounds me… as I continue to fly upward… I can feel the winds getting stronger… but I must press onward… The darkest part of my world is here… it is the core… the center of my confusion… my chaos… it is what keeps me from escaping… until now… I can see the opening… and as I race for it… I am chasing by lightning… a demon refusing to let go of its vessel… Closer and closer I get to reaching my goal… the strength of endless dreams and desires fuels my raging fury… it is so close to me… suddenly for the first time in a lifetime… I see the light of the sun… I am almost there… I am almost free… but the gap slowly begins to close… I must reach it in time… before I am too late… Energy surges through me… and my wings press through the gale winds… I am going to make it! I feel warmth inside… The light passes onto my skin… And I can feel the warmth of its light… as I pass through the barrier… and before I can look up... Time stops… My hand reaching out… to you… you the one who has made it possible… I can see you there… it is too bright to see your face… but I can see your eyes… staring back at me… I am free I know I am… I see your hand motion towards me…but then my eyes shut… I cringe in pain… confused… I remain there frozen… unable to move… only my eyes… and as I look down to the horror… A spear impales my chest… a spear with the emblem of… an angel… it is… yours… unable to breathe… I can see myself beginning to fall… my body falls backward… towards the barrier that is the void… the last of you I see… is your face… no longer shrouded in darkness… smiling… laughing… as you walk away… this world disappears.. and the only things I can feel inside are the surge of pain from my heart… and the tears falling from my eyes... I see the sun… the oh so beautiful sun… rising into the sky… just as the opening to what would set me free… closes in front of me… I continue to fall… I leave behind a trail of dead feathers… and tears… my wings slowly begin to wither and die… and the winds of the maelstrom… throw me across the plains… soon the clouds stretch across my view… as I break through their grasp… feathers chaotically drifting in the winds… my hand still reaching out… as I hit the ground… with a skull shattering blow… The plains roar with thunder… and it begins to rain… my body is broken… my soul is shattered… my wings are lifeless bones on the ground under me… but I feel nothing… not the cracks in my skull… not the raindrops falling on my face… mixing with the tears of blood falling from my eyes… just the pain of a spear impaled through my dying heart… and Fate… watching me from above… laughing… but I am not to die this day… my malediction is much worse… I am doomed to exist for eternity… with broken bone and shattered will… glaring up at the sky… as it rains down upon me... my hand still stretched out… out to you…

Monday, May 31, 2004

My Friends

I have a new piece... I just finished it a minute ago... I hope all the people that this piece is about know that they are included in my thoughts...

My Friends...
My place is dark… and my sky is gray…
But I caught the glimpse of a star today…
The void grows smaller… with each moment gone…
As twilight ends… just before morning’s dawn…
This moment is rare for people like me…
Who travel lonely paths to their destiny…
Deep down in my soul… I am not so sad
For companions surround me… and for this I am glad…
Their paths are all different… no two are the same…
Except for the fact that they all shout my name…
It is them who have given me all of my hope…
They have taught me to love… and help me to cope…
With the tears in my heart… and the scars in my mind…
And one thing is certain… they won’t leave me behind…
It is they that I thank for my happiness too…
For without them… I don’t know what I’d do…
It is you who have shaped what I have become…
I have you all to thank for escaping the glum…
Not all of them are with me today…
Some had left me behind when I drifted away…
But the few that I have are my most cherished friends…
Who’ll remain in my heart until my end…
They’ve given all this hope to me…
I’d die for them… So they may see…
Another day to glance at the sky…
And the ghost of their dreamer flying high…
You who stood by me for 8 crazy years…
You with your blue coat... always in good cheer...
You with your heart in the stars up above…
You with your kindness made me fall in love…
You who I teach the Dreamer’s Song…
You who I laugh with all day long…
All of you gave me the wings to fly…
You’ll remain in my heart til the day that I die…
I hope that you all will remember these days…
That I shared with you… and showed you my ways…

Sunday, May 30, 2004

New work...

Another story to pass on as I continue my journey... Hope you enjoy...

Dreams Will Never Die
The world can turn it’s back to you…
But Dreams will never die…
The darkness and corruption can consume your soul…
But Dreams will never die…
Your hopes can wither and rot…
But Dreams will never die…
Your life as you know it can drift into nothing…
But Dreams will never die…
A starry sky can be shattered into oblivion…
But Dreams will never die…
You may… never be… with the one you love…
But Dreams will never die…
You can lose your faith in what you believe…
But Dreams will never die…
You may choose to let go of your dreams… and give up…
But Dreams will never die…
You cannot forsake the dreams that you make…
For Dreams will never die…
Even if you wish they did…
Those Dreams will never die…
They will follow you until the end…
That takes a lot to understand…
They will follow you till the day you die…
There is no use to question why…
Don’t ever give up… don’t even try…
For those Dreams will never die…
You can try to forget them… deny that you know…
But deep in your mind… they forever will grow…
And they won’t stay in your mind… they will drift to your heart…
Where they will open the door… or they will tear it apart…
Your Dreams are essential… in your soul they will bloom…
But if they never come true… your mind they’ll consume…
They will bring tears to your eyes…As your heart slowly dies…
With no one around to hear your pathetic cries…
This is my malediction… my terrible curse…
My Dreams pass me by… and the going gets worse…
But the world melts away when I look to the sky…
With the song in my heart that sings… “I will fly!”
And one day I will have it… one day I’ll find love…
And again I will see… my stars up above…
This is my devotion… This is my ideal…
It may not be inst… and it may not be real…
But I’ll follow these until my lonely demise…
This is the faith that has opened my eyes…
A world without boundaries… a world without walls
A world without limits… if you answer the calls...
This is the place that I will belong…
On Chronia they sing the Dreamer’s Song…
And though it is only fiction to you…
In my heart… I know it to be true…
That one day it will come to me…
Fate’s evil sword… KwaL na’z Theli
And with my blood it will shine anew…
The Crimson Blade of Dreams… Shi-Teku…
So here I stand… alone and apart…
Waiting for what lies in my heart…
A door to yet another world….
With new thoughts and hopes and dreams unfurled…
And so the saying goes along…
As I sing my Dreamer’s Song…
“No matter how shattered… or broken they are…
Your dreams in the darkness… are a shining star…
And no matter how hopeless… your Dream’s you’ll achieve…
If you hold true to your faith… and in your heart you believe...
You’ll drift across oceans… You’ll touch the sky…
You’ll pass through the ages… Never caring why…
For your Dreams will never die…"
As long as you believe…
And I Do…

The Maiden Voyage...

This is the beginning I guess... this is the gateway from my world to yours... or at least part of it... I welcome all of you... I might as well begin with the reason why I made this... I need a place to store my writings so that people can see them... since Poetry.com is money grubbing, and has limited space I've decided to come here... Well here are the first 3 pieces to join this maiden voyage...

The Thoughts of A Dreamer
As a dreamer stands tall...
Alone and shattered he wanders...
Always drifting in the wind...
Always falling towards his fate...
Struggling to find his destiny
Fighting the loneliness in his heart...
What future is there to come…?
For one who has seen the pain….
Who’s lost in the eyes of society...
And trapped in the void
Forever lost in his soul.
I must always wonder...
Starring up at the stars every night
Is there truly a place for me?
Will I find my fantasy?
Is there truly destiny?
Is there truly love for me?
Will I ever be free?
For many long years I've dreamed of these things...
Searching for the truth
Yet always finding deceit...
Trying to step forward
But pushed back so far
Where is the place in time...?
Where darkness ends...
And light begins...
The day I find identity...
And one day find true destiny...
That day shall come to me some time...
But for now I must always wonder...
When...
Where...
How...
Who...?
Such things have always journeyed my mind
Yet I feel so broken...
Battered down by my past
Through the ages I drift...
Waiting for the answers I may never find...
Hoping for the dreams that may never come...
Yet I still stand strong...
Never losing faith...

Another Day...
Another day to dream a dream...
Another day the stars don't gleam...
Another broken soul to mend...
Except my own... it shall not end...
And so I look up to the sky...
With hopes that one day I will fly...
And that one day your world will see...
This thing that I call destiny...
But it is here I still remain...
With fragile dreams that I obtain...
Someday you just might understand…
The task I put into my hands…
Of Chronia you hear me speak…
It is this world to which I seek…
I pray this world shall remain safe…
For in Chronia I place my faith…
To escape the pain of society’s blight…
It is in this dream I find my light…
And though I cannot see my star…
Inside my dream’s it’s never far…
I hope that I return to her…
And prove that I’m not just a Dreamer…
But here I stand, alone and cold…
With dreams not shared, and thoughts untold…
But I swear! All is not in vain…
Although my life is endless rain…
I have a few who stand by me…
Who opened their hearts and set me free…
These are the few who gave me wings…
And show me the happiness your world brings…
Even they do not understand…
It is I alone who comprehend
My Dreams, my Fate, my Destiny…
And all the things inside of me…
So I remain the only one…
To know the truth to what I’ve begun…
Human, or Chronian… no difference to me…
For I believe in both you see…
I am on Earth each passing day…
But on Wings of Time I fly away…
As Casartello of the Human race…
And Dynedockia of Chu’Bwa Ku’ Space…
Two entities exist inside…
They are my passion, they are my pride…
My heart will heal, my mind has grown…
As I slowly drift into the unknown…
It does not matter wherever I go…
For in my soul I shall always know…
There’s always tomorrow… that’s when it may come…
And the race against Fate has finally begun…

This is Our World
War is among us… and slowly losing cause…
This is our World…
We sit back and watch as our children are sent off to die…
This is our World…
Our society reeks of Corruption…
This is our World…
The mainstream floats to the top,
as the idealists, the visionaries, the dreamers,
and the different people of this world
slowly drown in their wake…
This is our World…
Our minds are filled with greed,
And we constantly search for glory, for power, for more…
This is our World…
We discriminate towards so many,
“They are inferior to us, and don’t deserve the same rights we have”
This is our World…
Where people stand up and fight the system,
But are battered down by the sheer mass of the opposition…
This is our World…
We cannot change society… for it is far to big for it to change in whole…
This is our World…
Through Fire… Justice is Served…
This is our World…
Even when the odds turn us away, one will still step forward and face society…
This is our World…
One will let go of his feelings as an outcast,
and open his eyes to the ways of the Dreamer…
This is our World…
It is I that shall be the one…
With clear mind, open heart, and dreams that shall change this world…
This is our World…
A mainstream has learned to free their minds
and slowly accept the thoughts and ideas of a Radical Dreamer…
This is your World…
You have all slowly grown… in your own ways… and in your own aspirations….
This is your World…
As we slowly travel into tomorrow…
You will all move into the future with strong foundations,
And Minds ready for whatever it may bring…
This is your World…
And as we head towards that day, we stand strong,
Ready to fight whatever the world puts in our way…
That is our World…
While you spent your days growing up… One was left behind…
That was my World…
A poor soul who never really got the chance to fit in…
That was my World…
A boy who’s good nature was forgotten, or worse… never known…
That was my World…
Until now…
Beyond the pain I have felt… lies a place beyond all sorrow…
That is my World…
A place that has shaped my destiny…
and forged the dreams that lie deep inside my soul…
That is my World…
In the Galaxy of Chu’Bwa Ku’… on the distant world called Chronia…
That is my World…
Of Hawk Dynedockia… the Master of time…
And Fate… which cast him away… with the words…
“You are nothing but a dreamer… Fool.”
That is my World…
And So I wait… and I dream… and I believe in tomorrow…
This is my World…
With Companions who I hope shall help through the journey that is our lives…
That is my World…
We march towards the future… with eyes looking to destiny…
Let it be a fulfilling one for all of us…
That is our World!

There we are...
Enjoy... and please feel free to add a comment, I enjoy the feedback!

Through Fire, Justice is Served!

No matter how shattered... or how broken... or how impossible they may be... Dreams never die... as long as you beleive.... and I do... - Hawk Dynedockia