The Cycle

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The Cycle

The cycle continues onward... as I slowly roll into the depths... Always succumbing to Fates grip...
Darkness envelops me as I fall into the abyss.... My heart writhes in pain, as Fate has found another way to deceive me... Finally things begin to change... and life slowly shapes to my path... and Happiness echoes in my soul... My friendships grow... and my courage is strong... I think that I feel the winds of love begin to blow in my direction... I am free... or so I think... Then the inevitable happens, and all the dreams I have fought for are shattered, and the truths in my mind are lost... I hate this... this cycle of mine... It has excited for years... but I cannot defeat it... I cannot change Fate... for I am merely a pawn in this game of life... I give my heart and soul to the people I care about, for nothing in return... and receive only pain from them... I always thought that hope lived in them... that They would be my wings.... but as each cycle rolls by, the truth seems obvious... it is in the darker stages, the beginning of the cycle, that those loved ones look out for me... They are there to bring me to the light... but as the wheel nears its end, they are nowhere to be found... not beside me... Emptiness... that is what I feel... I want to show my love to these people... yet a simple gift cannot supply that yearning... and even then, a bitter emptiness waits for me just around the corner... Love has been lost and forgotten.... and Friendships that were once blooming begin to wither... until the cycle calls for them again.... I feel betrayed... betrayed by myself... for how I could be so foolish... so naïve... I trusted them, but they do not share my feelings of compassion... I am but a pawn that they can control, for I will bed to their every whim... in search of favor... only to find an empty friendship after the deeds are done... I am a fool... Foolish enough to believe that I still have a chance with the love of my life... Foolish enough to believe that things have changed... because they haven’t... They never did... I’ve just adapted to them. And people come and go from my life... friends and foes alike, and for every foe gone, another takes his place, and for a friend lost, a shell to breed false hope. For every day that has passed... I have learned and forgotten the one truth that shall always follow me... I do not belong in this world... and I never will...