The Path of A Dream

Wow, I never thought I would get it back so quickly... I've got something I'm quite happy with (And pissed about at the same time...) But I guess it's to be expected...

The Path of A Dream

All my life I have followed a dream…
A path that starts and ends only inside my mind…
Throughout the twists and turns of my heart…
And deep beyond the farthest reaches of my soul…
I have spent so many years following the dream…
My dream…
And where has it led me?
Where do I now stand…?
A new world, a new horizon…
But has anything truly changed…?
No…
My world has not changed…
Only my place in it has…
Such a world where people like me cannot exist…
My life lies upon a dream that will never come to pass…
My faith upon a life that will never live…
I believe in so much…
That these thoughts inside my head will guide me…
But to what?
Is it salvation?
Is it damnation?
Am I on the road to freedom?
Or simply to my end…?
What is it that I was meant to do?
Am I destined for greatness?
Or am I doomed merely to exist?
I do not have the will to simply be…
I do not have the skill to forge my destiny…
I do not have the strength to change this world…
And so what must I do now…
The Crimson Dreamer…
Destined to do great things…
Following the never ending faith in his heart…
And for what?
and why…?
When does the dream become more than just a dream…?
When does faith become reality…
Does it ever rise beyond a foolish optimism?
I will never know these answers…
And so I will walk down a new path…
One that leads to the same as all the others…
My unknown destination…
Where the truth behind my life will be…
For now I must face what lies around…
New people…
New places…
But what does this mean?
Is it really a second chance?
Or is it just another crowd?
One that will condemn and deceive me…
Just like the ones before them…
Is this life?
Is this what is destined to all who cannot walk a path of valor?
Of Wisdom?
Or of greatness?
Are we to deceive ourselves until the ends of time?
Am I all that is left of the graceful world?
I will never understand…
Just as those around me will never understand…
What it is to simply exist…
Without purpose…
Without Destiny…
Without a future…
And so I will wander through the ages of man…
Seeking that which can never be found…
Both Tangible, and in the depths of my imagination…
Such has been, and will be this life…
As no man can ever truly find himself…
When his entire life follows the path of a dream…

Back again!

Greetings from UMD! It's been FOREVER since I've written anything, but I've had some new things to think about... and I just wanted to write something... Not one of my better pieces.. but I'm happy to get something out, and it wasn't a bitch to do either... ^_^

It's like 1:30 so I'm not gonna name this once...

Chaotic life, the one we live…
In every single way…
For all the faith that we should give…
To see a brand new day…
What we are we think must be…
Perspective at a glance…
But some will find new life to see…They get a second chance…
I’m walking down a different path…
A new world to discover…
I’ve found my self beyond the wrath…
Of searching for another…
Beyond the moments long ago…
Beyond the pain so great…
Beyond the ties I used to know…
Beyond my brother Fate…
Embracing what is new around…
This place I now call home...
And while I haven’t left the ground…
My sprit’s free to roam…
The freedom that I once longed for
The peace I dreamt I’d find…
The life I once again adore…
New friends of many kind…
I’ve seen this world with different eyes…
Not trapped inside my past…
To glance upon the different skies…
As time goes by so fast…
So here’s to this, my second road…
Here’s to what’s ahead…
Here’s to what is not foretold…
By life that I don’t dread…
Here’s to what will come to me…
In all that I will do…
Here’s to finally being free…
And Here’s to meeting you…

The Road Ahead...

...


And so the road stretches before me once again...
That endless road that stretches beyond all horizons...
Beyond all boundries...
Beyond space and time...
I know where this road goes...
Not to peace or to freedom...
Not to love or desire...
Only to nothing...
It never truly ends...
but one thing is for sure...
I am the only soul to walk this empty road...
and so I'll pick up my feet...
and begin the same old broken journey...
As I creep across the lonely universe...
Following in the footsteps of my shattered heart...
Along this road there is no sky...
No sunset...
No stars to guide me in the times of peril...
Only the foolish hope that rests inside me...
The strength to carry through...
and the will to not take myself into the abyss...
I will follow this road til the end of my days...
Or until another girl leads me to stray away...
But in the end it's here that I will always be...
Falling through the cracks of this existence...
With each moment passing by into nothing...
Before I take the first step...
I take one last look at you...
You who blinded me from this road...
You who gave me a light to hold onto...
You who gave me stars to look up to...
You who gave me a purpose...
only to take it away...
Not because of who I am, or who you are...
But because I am simply not what you desire...
Yet you still lack the words to speak the truth
As it lurks in the unknown...
It matters not anymore...
The Blow has been struck...
and the innocence has been killed...
and so again to this bloody path I come...
With a fresh pair of fallen wings...
and a new despair to place upon my soul...
Another heart has passed me by...
Another soul has pushed me away...
and so with that I take my first step upon this road...
and return to the days of old...
With new tears and new pains to burden this life...
But I'll keep walking...
I always do...
Until the day that I can leave this place...
Not a void inside my heart...
But the place that I exist...
For the future does not want me here...
As does anyone else...
I'll walk an endless road...
If it will take me away from here...
If it will take me away from you...
So here is to another journey...
and to the road ahead...
Let it take me away from this place...
Deliver me and my emotions...
Deliver me and my pride...
Deliver me and my love...
Deliver me...

Go find your peace... and leave me to nothing...

Chaos

Yay I wrote something new! Here it is!

Chaos

What is this world I look upon
With temperance and mirth?
Knowledge now has come to mind
And new ideas to birth.

A shattered world upon this day
That crumbles by the hour
How else can any mortal say
These words not nearly sour?

Profit now a deity
As greed and power follow
In mind my faith dwindles in thee
Your hearts so deeply hollow

Yet, there is good in world atorn
That’s scattered far and wide
I do not cast this life in scorn
Yet heart and mind collide.

In emptiness I strive to bind...
Affection do I seek.
Yet scattered in this cluttered mind
A future not so bleak.

Standing tall with men alike
Dear friend and rivaled foe.
At brother Fate I seek to strike
To end this painful woe.

What is it here that plagues the soul?
This life, or world around?
Is it existence that I stole
That pins me to the ground?

With shattered wings I dare to fly
And shattered heart I care.
With shattered hope I dare to try
And shattered will I bear.

Yet all is not with troubled way
Good people stand with me
With them, this world is not so grey
A world I long to see.

New friends now walk upon this road
New strength upon these hands
And hope again has been bestowed
To free these troubled lands.

Yet still inside a better life
Are lies you never see.
Hold few of us that view this strife
The few of those like me.

I know not what will come of things
Or how life will unfold.
No matter what this future brings
The story will be told.

I’m still searching deep through time
To find another heart.
And find forgotten mirth sublime
As darkness shall depart.

Still searching for that fated hour...
I’ll find the heart that’s true...
I’ll find the one I’m looking for...
I’ll find her... I’ll find you...

Another

Well its morning, so it's time to post this on here...
It's the first thing I've written in a while. and theres nothing I'm trying to prove...
In fact, just like everything else I've written... I really don't expect it to make any sort of effect on anyone...I just wanted to vent... Enjoy it... it's one of the better poems I've written in quite a while and well... here it is

Another

I follow your eyes wherever I travel,
The voice in my heart.
Yet every moment slips away before I can take hold.
I want to live it... but life stands in my way.
I want to feel it... but still you turn away.
No one’s walked the empty halls of my heart,
Yet many have raced across the gears inside my head,
Only to crash upon the walls of reality
It can't be done...
Dreaming too much of a world with you,
And waking up to a life forever without...
I've gone too far,
Where no man dares to travel
When he seeks another heart
And as I struggle to dig my way out
It seems like the hole grows deeper
And just like anyone else
Your eyes upon the world
Searching for a soul to match your own
Or sealing the pain of betrayal behind a wall
That will always fall with time
I can only watch from far away
And never build those memories
You’ve saved for someone else.
I’m here to catch a fall
Yet I’m still here among the ranks of men
Branded for crimes I’ll never commit
I’ll burn at the stake with my brethren
For sharing the loins of my fellow man
And as I hang with these fools and deserters
I’ll never lose a smile
And laugh away my fate
Will I never know of those two eyes?
That glance back only at my face
But into the heart of a traitor...
It’s hard to watch your heart set ablaze.
And it’s hard to watch you build that wall
Time and time again
But I’ll always give a helping hand
To rescue you from the ashes
And I’ll always help you build that wall
And wait until it crashes
And all along I’ll say not one word
As I bring you back to your feet
But as days go by I wonder
Will it ever have a chance?
So many others out there
Looking back at you
I don’t know if you know it...
But I’m looking back too
They say that for everyone there is another
But I know right now.
It’s not another I would want
It’s you and only you...

New work

Ehh... people dont read this much anymore... but I want this up incase I change my Myspace anytime soon...

Beckoned into the future...
Summoned into the past...
My heart stretches and slowly tears...
As Time crashes together inside my soul...
I am torn by the moments that I once held so dear...
By the Pain that has tormented my life through the ages...
And by the ever shifting sands of Fate...
Where do I take my next step?
Do I turn my back on the past that I loved so much?
Do I submit to a pain that has left me scarred?
Do I try to conquer the ever fickle power of Fate?
What must I do? What can I do?
To find the future I seek?
No longer bound by a word or emotion...
Simply the answers I seek... and the happiness I desire...
No longer is it love... no longer is it Destiny...
The Essence that drives me towards the truth...
I live my life following these principles...
but where my future ends...
I do not know if their paths will cross...
Is it Love that shall first cross my path?
Or is it purpose that shall take me by the hand?
I seek both as I glimpse into a sky of midnight...
Yet find neither as I glimpse into the abyss above...
Is this life just an endless paradox?
The search for answers brings only more questions...
Some that I can answer...
Others that no man has the key to...
Where shall the dreams that exist inside lead me?
Where shall the wings that push me into the depths of tomorrow lead me next?
Who shall I meet? What shall I discover?
What is my purpose... Who is my love?
Do they intertwine? Or are they upon seperate roads...
Will I have to choose between the two?
Questions Questions Questions...
A life riddled with the engima of curiosity...
Such is the life of a Dreamer such as I...
Never satisfied with the status quoe....
I shall find something... some day...
This I know to be true...
Is it what I seek?
That is simply another question...
So many Keys...
Yet none fit the door...
But I will find the one...
That opens the gateway...
Into the Future...
Until then...
I stand tall...
I stand ready...
I stand Here and now...
Ready to Face the burden I know lies ahead...
For Pride and Purpose...
For Love and Freedom...
For Truth...
For Faith...
For Me...