Hopeless as ever...

I hope this means something to someone someday...
Especially the person it was written for...
if it doesn't already...

Life remains uncertain…
From the moment we enter this world…
From the time we begin this journey…
Until we see it through to the end…
The future…
What lies in store for us…
Remains an everlasting enigma…
We spend our days walking toward that fate…
Through sunny skies…
And starless nights…
Yet through both we keep walking…
Eyes always fixed on what lies ahead…
Only to briefly bask in what we’ve already crossed…
Companions come and go along the way…
Friends are made and lost…
As those years go marching by…
I have crossed many roads in my day…
Seen many dreams…
Moments of triumph…
And of pain…
I know what it means to belong…
And what it means to be alone…
I have seen this world…
And the people who dwell within…
And yet in all of my travels…
I have never met someone…
Quite like you…
You whose mind challenges and inspires at every turn…
Whose eyes gaze upon a world I have never known…
But have always wanted to find…
Your heart tells its own story…
Filled with both tears and smiles…
Darkness and Light…
Hope… and despair…
Our paths may be different…
You and I still may walk alone…
Guided only by our hearts…
Gazing upon those starless nights…
Pondering the future…
As we slowly march toward what is to come…
But when the dust settles…
When the fog finally burns through…
I find myself…
Standing by you…
Hand in hand…
Side by side…
Gazing just beyond the horizon…
With the starry skies above…
With the dark abyss below…
And as I look into those eyes…
To read the story they tell…
With the scars of the past…
The Fear…
The Uncertainty…
And maybe just a bit of hope…
I see the beauty…
The majesty…
The light shining in you…
Whatever is meant for us…
Whatever the future may bring…
Know this to be true:

I’ll fly with you into that sky…
Upon our wings we’ll soar…
I’ll Fall with you into those depths…
To darkness evermore…
No matter what tomorrow hides…
Above… or down below…
As long as we stand side by side…
I’ll never let you go…

If I could have these words be true…
I’ll know there’s hope for me…
I hope that I have found in you…
The Friendship…
You’ve found in me…

Hope...

To the people who actually come on here and read this stuff

I'm sure this title seems rather ironic, considering the piece itself...

But this is how I deal with what happens...

The emotions are on the paper...

and no longer in my mind...

And that's how I keep going...

Hope

How do I stand here now…

As the rain pours down upon my broken body…

The wind howling in the night..

How do I keep walking forward?

When the pain gets so unbearable…

How can I gaze upon a Crimson Sky…

When Darkness is all I have ever known…

Hope has kept me going for so long…

It has driven me to keep fighting in this war we call life…

It has inspired me… Given me faith…

That brighter days do come…

That loneliness can end…

That dreams can come true…

But in the end…

The shield of hope is only so strong…

And even it can falter under the hand of fate…

I have grown so tired…

So tired of this shattered existence…

The light fades by the moment…

My dreams are lost to time…

Love taunts me as it always has…

Bringing me close…

Only to push me just out of reach…

Sometimes I gaze into this darkness…

And wish that it was all a nightmare…

A Bad dream…

A Dark and terrible place…

That would disappear when awoken…

Lost forever to Oblivion…

Maybe this truly is Destiny…

Maybe this is the price I have to pay…

For the strength given to me…

To have a chance at life…

All those years ago…

Maybe this life…

Is the burden I must bear…

To live such a life…

Is to live it alone…

And so… Here I am…

A Face that no one will see…

A Voice that no one will hear…

A Heart that no one will hold…

I stand here now…

Defeated…

Broken…

And Alone…

And yet…

Through the darkness of this night…

Through the rain pouring down on me…

Not a tear has been shed…

Not one drop…

What’s left to stave the tide…?

What else can cast the darkness away…

All I have to save myself…

Before I am taken…

I am all that stands…

Between the void and myself…

My Strength…

My Resolve…

My Hope…

For Hope…

Is all that I am…

And Hope…

Is all that I have left…

Cousin's Wedding Poem

My cousin asked me to write a poem for her wedding... so I did!

This world is always turning…
All the days we walk this earth…
Coming and going…
With a brand new day dawning…
As yesterday fades behind us…
And yet we drift in the currents of time…
Eyes always on what’s further down the bend…
Rushing from one happening to the next…
One has to ask…
Where do all those moments go?
The hours…?
The minutes…?
We never stop to savor the moment…
And so we lose those precious times…
All the simple moments in life…
The times we overlook…
But such is the way of life…
In this fast paced world we live in…
Why can’t we enjoy those simple moments anymore?
The sound of children’s laughter…
The majesty of a sunset…
A lovers embrace…
Why can’t we stop and take pride in those special moments?
When children find their place in the world…
And set out on the journeys of their lives…
To find their happiness…
To start their own families…
When boys become men…
And when girls grow up to be their brides…
Today we’ve been given that chance…
Today we’ve chosen to break away from the current…
Today we’ve stopped the world from turning…
To hold onto these moments…
To embrace our two families…
As they become one…

And so here we are…
Ready to celebrate this joyous union…
Of two lives…
Of two hearts…
Of two souls that have intertwined…
We must treasure this moment…
Until the ends of time…

And as I gaze upon the two of you…
Cousin Jenny…
And Husband Jimmy…
I can only hope that I too…
May one day find the love that you two hold right now…
Together…