Midnight

Did some writing... kinda went off on a tangent... but I liked it...
I think I'm gonna call it...

Midnight

So this is where the road falls back into place...
All the loose ends have been sealed...
And Life slowly trickles back into the way it was supposed to be...
but because of what has happened... I've lost everyone...
Gone with the Winds...
Another chapter into tomorrow unfolds as the past slowly ripples into nothing...
My memories... do they mean anything...?
Time just plows forward... never stopping to pick up the pieces...
Where is everyone now?
We've left each other behind...
We've gone our seperate ways...
After all the moments we once held...
We've said goodbye...
Now all thats left...
Is the past...
Time will soon take...
All the memories away...
And what will be left?
Only Darkness shall remain...
Shadow... Emptiness...
A soul in ruin...
How can one live such a life...?
As to embrace what lies in the future...
and cradle what echoes from the past...
To live to find tomorrow...
and to never let go of yesterday...
only to have it wash away with the tides...
I can remember the days of old...
When nothing else mattered...
When for once in my life...
I was no longer a prisoner of time...
No longer a prisoner of Fate...
The doors were finally opening...
And just like that...
They slammed shut...
Before I could even glimps through the Keyhole...
There is always something in my way...
and with the aid of others...
sometimes I can overcome those obstacles...
but when the time comes to face the world alone...
my strength cannot hold the weight of reality...
my will cannot comprehend the foolishness of adolescence...
my heart cannot beat for two people...
if another is not beating with it...
my soul cannot hope...
for vindication in this place...
I must live in this prison I call life right now...
Free to do what I please...
With only the truths hidden in darkness...
Standing in my way...
A reality I cannot conceive...
Always standing under...
That shadow of what I once was...
The glory I once held...
And the power that was once mine...
I've fallen so far...
Only to rise again...
Stronger than before...
but not strong enough...
Trying to save what was lost in the beginning...
Trying to mend what has always been broken...
Trying to find love for what has always been hated...
Trying to free what has always been trapped...
Nestled in the depths of chaos...
Freedom...
It sounds so beautiful...
Love...
It feels so right...
but after one has tasted these fruits...
they cannot be satisfied with just a taste...
They cannot live off of just a bite...
and the struggle to find it again wages onward...
but for what?
Is it Greed? Or is it Survival?
Is it hope? Or is it instinct?
Life is too full of riddles...
and I have neither the time....
nor the patience...
To solve them...
and so I shall wander Aimlessly...
Waiting for the moment to come...
yet still searching for what once belonged in my arms...
Darkness is my home...
but my heart shines with light...
Despair chains me together...
but it's hope that keeps my whole...
Lonliness... binds me to existence...
but I'd choose a death in the arms of someone I love...
than a life eternally walking this path alone...
Such a thought echoes in and out of my mind...
Is this my lot in life...?
Only to have a glimpse at what the rest of the world takes for granted?
to strive to attain what others have long had?
to hold onto the shreds of what others grasp firmly...
Only time can answer my questions...
Always plowing forward...
Never stopping...
to pick up the pieces...
and so I must dive forward...
to break through chaos...
and find the sunrise...
On the other side...
of Midnight...

Perfect

Just wanted this up....

Perfect - The Pride of The Lancers...
But this time it's my Senior Year... OUR senior Year...

It's a cold day in December...
one that all of us will remember...
The snow falls down as we walk in this locker room for the last time...
The Depth chart still hangs on the wall...
and we still have one last chance to put on these pads...
and make a season perfect...
We may not be the first to accomplish this task...
but what is in the past, good or bad... is behind us...
This is our year, this is our season,
this is our chance to prove ourselves to this world...
Some of you may be nervous...
Some may be scared...
and some of us walk into this room with a heavy heart...
Knowing that this will be the last time we wear shoulder pads,
and put on that Black Helmet...
But now is not the time for tears...
Now is not the time for fears...
We've earned the place we are today...
And we've done something that no one else has done in this state...
We've gone down this path for 9 years straight...
This is our chance to leave our mark...
as 12 - 0 or 11 - 1...
Champs... or Chumps...
The choice is up to each and every one of you...
I know what 22 kids are going to do...
To those on the field, play with your heart...
Never give up, right from the start...
Make every block, run every hole...
It's our perfect season; it's OUR Super Bowl...
Make every tackle, pick every throw..
Catch every pass in the midst of the snow...
To those on the side line... right from the start...
Scream every second... cheer with your heart...
Even if cheering is all that you do...
This is your moment, it's your season too...
11 men stand in our way...
From being the best...
and from ending this season...
As winners... as Division 1 Super Bowl Champions
ending this season...
Perfect...

- Casserole

It's hard to please a princess...

I'm not to happy that this is what's needed to happen to give me an idea to write about... but it's happend... This whole thing is stupid if you ask me... but it's yet again not in my control... these stupid little things happen though, and I'm sure it'll be sorted out soon enough... but nevertheless I needed to vent... I have a hard time confronting these kinds of things with my friends... especially in these kinds of situations. Not that I'm afraid to, well in a way I am... but I don't fear for me, I fear for us... I fear that if I do make an argument that bad things will come from it... I'm new at relationships... and these things happen, so w/e... anyway before I ramble anymore...

It's Hard to please a Princess... (Especially Mine...)

It’s hard to please a princess...
No matter how much you try,
Nothing seems to be enough...
You live to make her happy...
But it’s YOU she has a problem with...
“Look at your clothes! They simply won’t do!”
As she glares at the rags upon your back in disgust...
You struggle to follow the mile long list of demands she has upon you...
Yet, you find nothing wrong with her icy glance...
You feel a sense of freedom...
When you are trapped by a leash...
Every move you make is followed by an unblinking eye...
Every word you say is frowned upon...
Every gesture every compliment every sign of love is ignored and dismissed...
It’s hard to please a princess...
When suitors walk in every day...
When her eyes are on anyone and everyone else...
When you feel like you could be replaced at any moment...
And the fear of losing her drowns you until you’re numb...
You miss the days passed... When her heart belonged to you...
When you were her sunrise and sunset... When you were the world to her...
It feels like those days are gone... and never coming back...
It’s hard to please a princess... when everything you try to do right...
Ends up being wrong...
When “I love you.” brings frustration instead of joy.
When your feelings are thrown back at you...
When you lose your place in her heart...
And become another face in the ever growing crowd...
It’s hard to please a princess...
When she scorns you for your flaws...
Yet you neither speak nor care of hers...
When the closer you are to her...
The more she pushes away...
When the more you are together...
The more of a nuisance you become...
When all you want to do is be with her...
And all she wants is to be away from you...
It’s hard to please a princess...
But when you finally do...
And you see that twinkle in her eyes that you thought was lost forever...
When at long last you hold her in your arms again...
When you feel her soft lips pressed against yours...
And when “I love you...” makes her eyes water instead of roll...
Nothing else matters...
All troubles, all burdens, all the doubts in your mine cease to exist...
Time fades... and at last you feel the warmth that was locked away...
At last you hold her love in your hands...
At last you are her prince...

I believe (My Rendition)

I've been bored... I've done a lot of writing though, but a lot of it is nonsense from my CW class... but In the midsts of it I wrote this... it's my rendition to the song, I believe, by Dee Roberts

I did take a lot of the original lyrics... but I changed around most of it...

I believe (My Rendition)
Note: This is NOT originally my work, I just experimented with the lyrics.

Where have all the Dreamer's gone?
We've never left this place...
Cas everyones had fallen wings...
You can see it in their face...

And I had a vision...
that I'd love you for eternity...
but it seems now that's not in my destiny...

I believe in miracles...
That’s how I'm here today...
but I haven't seen another one...
Since my very first day...

I believe that love can last...
Until the end of time...
but I was never there for yours...
and so I have to wonder why...?

Where was I when you loved me?
I'll never know those dreams...
I wish that I could turn back time...
Though I can't it seems...

My Heart won't be broken...
Even if it will not be safe...
You may not love me...
But I still have faith...

I believe in miracles...
They happen every day...
‘Cas I made a wish to find the one...
And then You came...

But the winds of Fate stood in my way...
And I was left behind...
I'll never see your eyes on me...
As I look into the starless sky...

I can't name this...

Today may be one of the worst days of my life... What started out as a day of absolute Triumph has now perished into this... Normally I would write a lot more than this... but I can't handle this... I Can't... and This is all I can afford myself...

...
What is left of a lost Friendship

I set fourth on this journey... in the name of friendship... with the song of a Dreamer in my heart... and all the hope in the world...And now there is nothing left of this path... Here... in the ashes of what was once a friendship... and in the shattered dream that was once love... I lie in the center... with a heart still beating... and a mind still dreaming... but this is all that I have left... My Friendship died many days ago... My Love Fell with it... and as it tumbled to the ground... all of my hopes... all of my dreams... all of the Good things that I had in the world... died with it this day... in my battered hand is the letter you wrote... the words that broke my heart... I am without a beacon... without a star to guide me through the night... without a light to shine in the darkness of the unknown... I have lost my courage... I have lost my strength... I have lost my love... The one thing I’ve held on to for all these years... The one thing that has driven me through the ashes of this miserable life... the hope of finding someone to share it with... and in my search I found you... and Everything became worthwhile... and now... after I have opened your eyes.... to the TRUTH... you turn and run from me... you quiver in fear... you turn away... you stomp upon my dying heart... and leave me here to die in the ruins of my life... I am alone... cold upon the ground... My limbs frozen in despair... My eyes glazed upon the shattered sky above my head... It begins to rain... and a salty stream of tears flows down my face... This... This is my only home... it is the only home I ever known... this Pain Blankets me... This rain sustains me... This existence is what I am meant to do... I live on... only to suffer... for that is my lot in this life... To strive on what little happiness that is bestowed on me... only to be smitten by the cold hard fist of reality... This is life... this is my life... and I shall never escape this Fate... Brother... You Win...

Two Minds

FINALLY got the creative juices flowing again... and I finally got a good poem written... yay!

Two Minds

I hang from the edge of darkness and light...
With the soul of a mystic... and a doomed lover’s bane...
On one side... happiness... a future so bright...
And the other... oblivion of suffering and pain...
Housed in my soul... two minds are found...
A beacon of hope... A vessel of fate...
This destiny to which I’m bound...
The Dream I’ll one day consummate...
With each passing day I am torn apart...
Trapped on the brink of each echoing path...
It is this pain that shatters my heart...
And brings fourth the doom of my brother’s wrath...
A Dreamer lost with fallen wings...
As love is just beyond my reach...
A Fallen of whom the Dreamer sings...
The only one with the soul of each...
I know not where my heart shall go...
That as my passions swiftly burn...
Or if one day I'll ever know...
To Chronia shall I return...
Will I embrace my destiny?
To Master all of Time and Space...
To find the love out there for me...
And Reunite my scattered race...?
Or is it here I’ll spend my days?
Trapped inside a world alone...
Is there a part that my soul plays...?
Or is it joy to be undone?
A cycle of life... cast into the flame...
A man with a dream... to fall in love...
A life that shall never be the same...
The wings of hope... to fly above...
Where is the place that I shall fall?
Another dream? Or Fallen void...?
Am I to be my brother’s thrall?
Or shall his glory be destroyed...?
These questions always plague my mind...
When the sun goes down... and the stars shine bright...
My squandered past... the Love I shall find...
The tears shall fall from my face tonight...
Love is the only dream I can hope...
In this reality of mine...
So far no luck... but I still cope...
It shall come to me at the proper time...
When I am fated to find my star...
And my deepest dream shall at last come true...
My past nothing more than an empty scar...
This day to come... I shall be with you...

I am...

Wow... this came out of nowhere... but It's not too bad... enjoy!

I am a drifter… lost and free…
Able to forge my destiny...
There never was a home for me...
A Drifters dream to win…
I am a demon… cunning and cruel…
Cutting my path to nobodies rule…
Here to prove that man is a fool…
A Demons dream to sin…
I am a soldier… born to fight…
Save the world… with all my might…
No evil shall escape my sight…
A Soldiers dream to die…
I am a Dreamer… seeking another...
Tired of torment from my evil brother…
Destiny or Love… it’s one or the other…
A Dreamers dream to fly…
I am a pilot… soaring the skies…
When they reach my sights… the enemy dies…
Never to hear my adversaries cries…
A Pilots dream to soar…
I am a fallen… ending my life…
Sick of existence… this tedious strife…
No tears are falling as I hold the knife…
A Fallen dreams no more…
I am an artist… starving for more…
Painting my path as I open the door…
Piece by piece my ideas shall soar…
An Artists dream to inspire…
I am Revolution… born to change…
Chaos and Violence… I shall rearrange…
Across the world shall my voice be in range…
Revolutions dream to set fire…
I am a loser… fallen in pain...
Walking my path with an endless rain…
Asking myself if my life is in vain…?
A Loser dream to love…
I am me… that’s all I can say…
Strong and weak in many a way…
I hope to meet with you someday…
My Dream... to rise above…

Maybe Someday... Maybe not...

Another new piece... Enjoy...

Maybe Someday...
*This piece has been removed... sick of trying... sick of failing... I give up...*
No more words I can speak... my path has been chosen...

Just wanted to add this again! lol I needed a bigger one so! 

Just a background I wanted to Put up... I made this with Photoshop... It's not that good but I tried! ^_^