Just venting...

Well... I FINALLY wrote something new... it took a really shitty weekend... but I finally wrote something new...

It doesnt really have a title, but I'm happy to finally write something, maybe I'll get back into a streak again.

Darkness deals another blow...
And Tears fall down my empty face...
Helpless in a pile of snow...
Trapped inside this place...
I thought things well going well...
That life was going my way...
But once again the world is hell...
Each and every day...
I’ve failed to bring a victory...
I’ve fallen to despair…
I’ve lost my sense of destiny...
In Fates diabolical lair...
Another day of misery, oh how can It get worse?
Yet its just another peril you see, in my oh so wonderful curse…
It's haunted me since I was born, it almost killed me then…
It's followed me through agony, time and time again…
Fall deep into the void...
Into the depths I go...
Now is the time you give me grief
Now is the time you show...
You push me around like a raggedy doll...
You slowly tear my wings...
And laugh at me for all I do...
In any and all things...
And as each season rolls along...
The grief returns again...
They try once more to make more wrong...
Make me a shattered man...
Anger is the power of rage...
The Fire held inside...
To let lose the monster from his cage...
With Raging Fury flied...
So now I lie in Crimson snow...
Freezing in my sorrow...
Toiling every second away...
Not hoping for tomorrow…
Nothing good will come of me, no matter how hard I try…
Pain rears its ugly head every time I pass on by...
But with every curse, a hidden blessing hides from normal view...
That helps to break the spell by whatever it’s supposed to do...
And while I’ve gone to hell and back, I have this blessing too...
And if I really had to say... I’d say that blessings you...
I’ve said this fifty thousand times… and I will say it once more...
You’re the key that’s gotten me to open up the door...
To a better world, a better place, a better way of life...
You healed me of my painful wounds… and eased me of my strife...
I’d probably be dead if it weren’t for you… or at least be very lost...
And someday I will repay you no matter what the cost...
And while we’re face to face much less... and now there’s no more love...
I still dream that you and I shall fly in skies above...
Friendship is my purpose now... to do the best I do...
I shall not let this happen to thee... and this I promise you.

Downtime

For anyone who's been reading, just letting you know that I'm having comp issue. Apparently I've got a virus I have to take care of, so I won't be able to update (Im on my dad's laptop) Hopefully Ill get it fixed and be back soon

***UPDATE***

Everythings working now... and to top it off, I FINALLY have windows xp again!!!!
I havn't really written anything in a while, but I'm getting there... I'll have something up soon!

New Work

I have new work... one of which is VERY important... one is just a little boast I did for English

English Boast

I am Matthew, Brother of Rathios...
I am Lord of Chronia, and Rival of Fate...
Son of Dynedockia, and Dreamer of Destiny...
Lover of Mana, and Master of Time...
I have slain the corruption of K'wal Na'z Theli...
A Dreaming Bard of Modern day...
I write the Chronicles of The Crimson Dreamer...
Wielder of ShiTe’Ku and the Wings of Time...
I shall sprout the seeds of Destiny...
And soon fulfill my prophecy!

And This... This may be one of the most important pieces I write... I am pretty sure that this is going to begin my book... It won't be the actual beginning of the storyline, but it is a Poem that sort of summarizes the Legend, and how it comes true in my story... well here it is!

The Prophecy

Behold the signs of Ages Past...
When Chronia unites at last...
A Hero shall rise above and lead...
And jealous brother toiled with greed...
With strength and spirit he will fight...
To try and make our future bright...
But brother's envy shall consume...
And bring a Dreamer’s Fate to doom…
A prophecy from days long passed…
Of a Man with power unsurpassed…
Who shall break the Curse of Kwa’l Na’z Theli...
And set fourth Chronia’s Prophecy…
From ancient past... a Blade Of Old…
And with this blade, a story is told...
Of hidden power buried within...
For only those devoid of sin...
A Mighty Blade the Dreamer's Built,
With a Crimson Eye, and a Silver Hilt...
Heavy to any who try to wield...
But to Chosen Few, this sword shall yield...
If the wielder's blood should spill...
The weapon's thirst for sin shall fill...
And if the bearer holds such blight...
The Blade shall present its hidden spite…
Malediction begins with just a drop…
Upon the Blade… but it won’t stop
A curse bestowed on evil’s bane…
For only their broken shells remain…
A fallen being devoid of soul…
With only one thought to keep them whole…
The last of the wielders before they attune…
Emotion, and thought, their minds will consume…
Wandering puppets, lost to the blade…
As they drift through the ages, and memories fade…
The soul shall dwell inside the sword…
Never again to be truly restored…
But all is not lost for he who shall fall…
For the Chosen one shall answer the call…
A Dreamer from another world…
Shall find his path as it unfurled…
And with the Seeds of Destiny…
Shall find this Blade, Kwa’l Na’z Theli…
With the purest of heart… and A Noble Dream...
A Fallen Hero… this boy shall redeem…
A drifting soul shall no longer mourn…
As the Crimson Dreamer shall be reborn…
Beneath the ashes, the curse shall break…
And a sleeping spirit shall awake…
Ancient power shines anew…
As The Crimson Blade… Shi’Te’Ku
With strength enhancing every trait…
And the long sought power to topple Fate…
...The brother shall go and search the stars…
And lose the name Dynedockia…
Fate shall leave behind his scars…
And begin The Legend of Chronia…

New Work

Just Adding some stuff that I wrote... enjoy:

The wind echoes in my soul… as another night goes by… Another night without hearing your voice… and seeing your face… Day after day pass into oblivion… and I can no longer see you anymore… The encumbering boundaries of life have stretched us far apart… and now I can only imagine a whisper… an echo of the past… Calling out your name… as each passing moment drifts by… I can feel my heart longing to those days long ago… when seeing you was nothing more than the turn of a shoulder… but now I can feel you slowly slipping away from me… Each day I wait… and hope that today I will get a new opportunity… but as every chance presents itself… I am cut short… due to the burdens you hold upon yourself…however all is not in vain… for there are many other faces that have found their way to my eyes… many friends, both old and new now walk beside me… and I with them… but as the sands of time blow by… I wretch as my heart slowly splits in two… as one side yearns for you… and those days long ago… and the other stretches out for the future… and those who meet my eyes these days… I do not want to make a choice… and I will not forsake either… even if it tears me apart inside… I will not see my companions fall… not when I can be there to help them back up… I do not care what stands in my way, or what may happen to me by doing so… They have stood by me far to long for me to abandon them… Battered and bruised I still stand tall… waving a banner of Chronia, and singing my Dreamer’s song… standing before a setting sun… and as that glimmering sun sets, a crimson scar stretches across the horizon… all is quiet as the wind whispers across the sky… and in this place, I stand alone… for no one else can stand behind a banner of Chronia… not here… not now… not yet… So as I make my stand here alone… In another plain, I am with all of you… my team mates, my companions, my friends… As we live this life together… sharing the moments we have, as we forge our memories… Standing together as we find our hopes and fears… laugher and tears… The moments where we triumph, and fall gracefully to defeat… Times have finally changed… and this world slowly begins to travel forward… away from the blights that I have faced in the past… towards a brighter future… for me at least… and while there are those who still drive me towards that fading darkness… I shall always push back, I shall always resist… The future is still clouded in the deep for me… Fate has given me a chance… and many possibilities have stretched out before me… and I feel that he is not forcing me down a path... It feels like I can finally choose my way… I broke the chains of Fate long ago… but I think he has finally released me from his grasp… Yet I still find my own way back to him… Perhaps the brother of Dynedockia has not been lost to K’wal Na’z The’li… I can feel the sands of time slowly drifting by, as we grow another year older… and while many a thought have drastically changed to my favor, there are still thoughts and emotions that drag me back to darkness… I am still alone… No matter how better things have become… I can still feel that emptiness eating away at my soul… As agony beckons… and many around me turned to embrace their loved ones… I am left with the pain of an aching heart… All I can do is fall to my knees… and look up to the midnight sky… cold and helpless as the stars watch upon my misfortune and laugh… Though light years away, they are but a nails length apart in that velvet strip that looms above the horizon… And while that is a pain I have learned to tolerate… It still brings tears to my heart from time to time… but I still look up to those stars, and dream of a day when this will be all but a memory… and these burdens of mine will cease to exist… and what painful memories still beckon shall be overshadowed by the happiness that all of you have brought me… When all is said and done… and we have said our goodbyes… and the time for our paths to separate is upon us… I know that somewhere down the road they will converge again… I will see you again… and the friendships that were thought to fade away shall rise again… and be the beginning of another age… As I slowly wander into the autumn wind... and as the falling leaves drift by... I reminisce… to a simpler time… when I was lost in a whirlwind of emotion, of love, of hope, of pain and despair, and the seeds of destiny were sewn into my soul… and as I open my eyes to another setting sun, I still look to the stars, as they slowly light the night sky, I know that I shall never regret… I shall never give up, and I shall never forget… I shall never forget the days of euphoria… and the nights filled with tears… I shall never forget the friends I have found and lost along the way, and the rivals I have made to drive my self forward… I shall never forget the memories and moments we all have had… and most of all… I shall never forget you…

Just something I wanted up...

This is just something I wanted up here... It was unnamed... but it's the longest piece I've ever written... and I think it deserves to be up here...

A Alternate version of the Transformation from Human to Chronian

That day shall cross my thought for an eternity… This world was peaceful… Life was just dreaming of another world… of my wildest fantasy come true…. Of Destiny as my heart and soul had told me… yet somehow in one night… that would all forever change… with just a simple flash in the sky… The dream that made my life came to an end… for this was no longer just a dream. As another day went by… nothing was different, out of the ordinary. Then I saw it… a strange light coming from the sky, and no sooner did it fade came the violet spheres of energy, hurdling down from the heavens and crashing against the ground around me. The earth quaked beneath me, and I was thrown aside from an upheaval in the ground. The moment came and I was able to flee… Before the next barrage, I turned around to the ruins in front of me as Fate came crashing down that night… The clouds were torn apart and my aggressor was revealed. Massive ships floating in the sky, and with the spinning of machines, a purple glow resonated from the massive giants in the sky. I did the one thing left on my mind… I ran like hell… Millions of lights came down to the earth, both white and purple like tears in the night as I fled from what would be my slaughter…Soon more of this energy was hurdling towards me. Not from the sky, but from behind me. Fear floods my mind, and in the deepest darkest corner of my mind… I was excited… for somehow I realized that this might be the beginning. The only question was… of my salvation, or my destruction? What little time I had to my advantage was running out… The more I ran the more I believed I was facing death… there was no change in me, no new feelings other than the exhaustion and fear from the incursion behind me. There was no Magical transformation… no… it would seem that my fate would be at the end of a blaster… As what hope I had faded… I slowed down… this is where my end would be… my dreams shattered, and my will broken, I stopped and awaited the wave of death hurdling towards me… I turned around to face my ruin, and as these strange men came closer towards me… they raised their weapons… and fired… I watched as the spheres of energy closed in and await my bitter end… Then something happened… something that I would never have expected to happen… A light flashed in front of me… and I fell backwards, almost blinded from the blast of light in front of me. I opened my eyes fearing death had consumed me… yet to my shock this was not the scene before me… I was still alive... somehow, unscathed. I stood up and looked around… The men, the ships, even the beams of energy… everything was frozen! It was if time had stopped moments before… I was puzzled… and as I turned around… It couldn’t have been… but it was… everything came into place… There before me was all the meaning, all the purpose in my life… the Sword that forged my dreams... and crafted my destiny… The Blade of Dreams, Shi Te'ku. I was frozen, as if its power had stopped me with my adversaries… This was my reason to live, to dream, to fight… It was beautiful… more beautiful then I had ever dreamed… A Silver Blade with a series of Crimson Gems running the length of the sword. Upon the Blade was a Crimson Hilt etched with ancient Chronian Runes. In the center of the Hilt was a strange Stone… it appeared to be nothing but an obsidian rock, but only I knew the true secret that lies within. I looked upon the blade… It was as if I was staring at destiny… My mind raced for an eternity, and every second seemed like an eon… I knew now… this was my time… I slowly reached out for the blade… every moment my hand came closer to its grip, a strange feeling passed through me… warmness. I finally clasped my hands around its Hilt and glared directly into the Black center of the hilt… as soon as I gazed upon it, the stone split down the middle and opened revealing an emerald eye very similar to the color of my own eyes. I glared into the eye, not surprised by its existence, and it glared right back at me delving deep into my soul. This was the moment I had been waiting for all my life, and then it came, the end of my story… I raised the sword to the sky, and I felt a surge of energy, my eyes turned a deep red, as did Shi Te'ku’s ever watching eye. I could feel it all returning to me.... everything made sense. I could feel myself rising from the ground. Soon it was surging throughout my body… I was changing. I could feel myself becoming something completely new, yet at the same time, I felt like I was returning to the way I used to be. Memories raced through my mind. Ideas, thoughts, and dreams I have never conceived now became my own. A pair of wings burst from my back, and I could feel my own mind changing with this… The light receded and I landed on the ground. A winged entity… no longer the human that I used to be… no longer waiting for my destiny… I was no longer the dreamer… I became the ChronoHawk… Keeper of Dreams… Lord of Chronia I became… Hawk Dynedockia… the Master… of Time. I could feel the power surging through me… I knew what I had become… I drew my blade, and fixed my eyes upon the enemy in front of me. I knew the outcome… and positioned myself, ready to fight now… and with a mere thought, I released the grip I had on time, and return it’s flow to normal… The men staggered, as if they realized the moment they had skipped through. Looking upon their target… yet as soon as they realized what had happened, I could sense their feelings of surprise, of astonishment, and of the horror. Not knowing what to do, some of them fired upon me, I brushed the blasts aside, as if it was a barrage of common rubber balls. I closed my eyes for a moment, and raised my hand towards them, and then felt something… something unnatural... I could feel the adrenaline coarse through my veins, and a fire burned in my eyes… it was anger, an anger so great that I could feel the rage swelling inside me… the betrayal of my brother, of the corruption Fate cursed him with. All of these memories I had passed through my mind all at once… The Fire exploded in my heart, and I lost control… I could hear myself howl in the night as I dashed toward my foes… I raised Shi Te'ku and heard the screams of these men as I attacked... After approaching my first enemy, I made a forward slash, severing him at the torso. With unparalleled speed I sprung at the next victim; again, I slashed at the next soldier, slicing him in two…I shouted again, as I’d thrust my hand through the body of another soldier and ripped out his spine. The Cries of dying men echoed in the night, and I could feel the anger surging through me. My vision became blurry and I blacked out, all I could do was hear the screams of men, the splitting of bones and the sound of metal slicing through flesh. It was all too easy… I finally regained my sight, and looked around. What I saw was devastating. All around me where corpses, heads detached from their bodies rolling down the road from the wind in the night bodes defiled in the most excruciating ways. Piles of limbs, torsos, heads, and organs filled the road. I felt the blood that had splattered on my face from the battle… no this was no battle… not now it wasn’t… the tables had drastically turned… this was a massacre. Looking upon one of the bodies not mangled or ripped apart, I removed the armor from the broken man… yet to my surprise, and yet relief, these were not men. The skin was a bluish color, fangs decorated its jaw, and its eyes a bright yellow… These bodies belonged to Fate’s Demons, not men of Chronia. I had not killed my own people… I panted, still trying to overcome the encounter I had just experienced. I began to gather the corpses, and as I piled them on high, I was hit with another barrage of the familiar purple disruptors. I shielded myself with the body I had in my hand, and I watched as it burst apart all over me. I looked above to see the massive ships, towering over me. It was a pity that these beings still tried to fight, but I knew what I had to do… I slowly began to run… run towards the gigantic monoliths in the sky. As I ran, my speed began to increase, I felt myself running faster and faster… faster than any human had ever run, or ever would. I ran so fast that I could barely see the landscape passing me by… and at the peak of my speed, I leapt, spreading my wings and flapping them in the wind. The ground grew smaller and smaller as I soared to the heights of the Juggernaut in the sky. Using my Chonotomic abilities, I slowed down time, knowing the barrage I would receive in a mere moment. With a mere though time began to slow, the blaster turrets, already beginning to spin seemed to almost slow down, I braced for the attack as I approached the first ship. Very slowly, shots came out of the spinning turrets; fortunately I was able to dodge the blasts as I sliced through the base of the guns. Not wasting time, I stopped and focused…. Glaring at what appeared to be the eyes of the monster. I held Shi Te'ku in front of me, as all of the remaining weapons on board the ships targeting me… I still remained where I was, floating before them, Shi Te'ku at my face. Then in a microsecond explosions ripped across both ships! They began falling to the ground, considering their graviton generators were destroyed by the blasts I’d guess. As they fell the ships began to almost slide apart… as if it were cut! One could guess at how this could have happened, but I know the secret of the tale. The Ships hit the ground exploding at impact; I felt the wind surge by as if it we’re spirits being released from a curse. I dropped to the ground and slowly began to walk… walk away from the carnage behind me… it was over… and I was victorious. As I walked… I thought of the other memories that Fate took from me… Our father, our people… and my precious Chronia… Oh! How I longed to return to her! I came upon a massive rock and hopped on top. The stray blasts had destroyed so much… trees we’re broken, homes destroyed… people injured and killed… I looked beyond the void left behind by the demons and gazed upon a rising sun… As its light raced across the plain I realized something… This power that I have regained… it is both special and unique, but I must re-learn to apply it, for if I lose control, the repercussions could be cataclysmic… I watched as the sun slowly raised to the sky… my tattered clothes drifting in the wind. Shi Te'ku in my right arm pointed at the rock beneath me. My Wings spread in the air, swaying in the morning breeze. This was the beginning of Destiny… it had finally come. I faced a greater evil now... as I stared at sun, I saw the image of my brother, twisted and corrupted now… I then jumped off the boulder and slowly walked away from my brother… I would encounter him soon enough… It was over… for now.

A New Age... Part Four

I haven't written much for a while... After losing something I thought up while talking to Angelina (Damn you DeadAIM!) I did manage to write a new poem for A New Age... I'm pleased with what I could think up in 5 minutes time... ^_^ It's not finished cas I'm tired (it's 11) but I'll get it done soon...
*UPDATE* Done! ^_^

A New Age: As The Hourglass Falls...

We join hands again in a familiar place…
And bid farewell to a leaving class…
But joining us now is a brand new face…
With unknown thoughts that will come to pass…
Lovers reunite… and friends meet again…
And newcomers find their way to our door…
We wait and we wait for the moment of when…
They can tell us some stories… and share with our lore…
We stand ready facing a whole new age…
With new friends to make, and new heights to climb…
It all begins with the turn of the page…
And the shifting of sands… in the chapters of time…
Time has taken us apart…
And time again brings us together…
But as the pessimistic say…
Nothing ever lasts forever…
The hourglass continues to fall…
There isn’t too much left you see…
Already people are hearing the call…
And starting the path to destiny…
It is joyful to see the familiar faces…
It is painful to know that it will not last…
And to know we will be in different places…
But now I can say… that it’s been a blast!
You’ve opened my eyes in a whole new way…
You’ve let me see the goodness in you…
My spirits are high on this wondrous day…
And I’m writing again… as I always do…
So what lies ahead in this brand new year?
Who will step forward and answer the call?
Who will fall backwards and drown in their tear?
As they sit back and observe the hourglass fall…
We’re all moving together… till the road splits apart…
And the crossroads we pass through set our separate ways…
We’ll all treasure these moments inside every heart…
A memory to last for the rest of our days…

Anyway I do have something I'd like to put up... although she's probably gonna get mad at me for putting it up... It was just an away msg... Although very depressing, I think she has some real potential... If anyone who's reading this sees her in the Hall, please tell her that Cas she won't listen to me!!! X_X Anyway, here it is... and I am impressed Elyssa...

Unnamed Away Message
by Elyssa Aurbech (sp?)
I feel myself drifting
Further from reality half the time
I don't know myself at all
Part of me doesn't even want to
I feel confused and alone mostly
I guess you could say im starting to give up
Very slowly this world is disappearing

It's just a start, but I think she has a lot of potential... SO TELL HER THAT!!!!

(It's me Javier, sorry its been awhile i promise im back on track!) As I laid my hand to the ground on the last rainy day in this world. I dropped the last thing protecting me on this world. It was up to the gods to detirmine my fate. I was brought my last view, The Loner. Who was my savior. I chased him my whole life to find an answer why? Why would my life be so signifigant? He cracked a wretched smile as i felt that all my questions were answered.
We felt born again to drift along on my own as two sperate souls sharing one goal... TO LIVE." 

My Mentor

Well... a little break from the ANA (A new age)
This is something I started writing a few months ago... and finally finished All I need is a name for the piece...
Here's to you Matt...
It's been an honor to learn from the best... ^_^

My Mentor (Named by and dedicated to Matt Sprotte)

My life’s journey continues it’s race…
But Now Arises a familiar face…
A man from days of forgotten glory…
Back when I began my story…
Back to an age when my dreams were just dreams...
When my heart was a hole... a void so it seems...
Before I saw the power I had...
Or the poet inside me... My writing was bad...
I was merely a Kid... lost in my tears…
With pain in my soul… haunted by fears…
But before I found love… I had an escape…
That was shown to me by a man with a cape…
He saw my potential… but I needed work…
And he stayed by my side when the others were jerks…
He taught me the ways of the people up high…
Who created new worlds in the blink of an eye…
An Adventurer’s fate could lie in his hands…
He’d decide their future… and give them commands…
To succeed or to fail in this game we play…
It’s life in this world… or so we would say…
But this game that we play’s not as hard as it seems…
As I focused the power that channeled my dreams…
I saw this world for what it really was…
Now I stand by his side… and it’s only because…
Of a man with the name that I call my own…
With the lesson’s he’d taught and the ideas he’d sewn…
Into my mind… and then they would sprout…
And I’d know what this creativity’s about…
I opened my eyes… and I set free my soul…
With the help of my mentor… I got out of that whole…
You set me down the path I take…
You gave me a chance to atone my mistakes…
You gave me the skills to continue along…
The Notes to sing the dreamers song…
So here’s to you my venerable friend…
Funny… and loyal to the end…
You’ll always be a mentor to me…
For you helped shape my destiny…
No one out there rp’s like you can…
King of the GM’s… my master… Matt-san!!!

A New Age... Part Three

Well... I've been a little slow with writin lately... but I did manage to pull of something... It's a bit small, and Once I get a clearer idea with it, I'll probably add more.
*Update*
Added More ^_^

A New Age: Through Troubled Eyes

Each sees the world with their own eyes...
A point of view it seems...
To which we all shall live our lives...
and gaze into our dreams...
An uncommon sight exists in this world...
A vision owned by few...
A side of life with truth unfurled...
a Side you never knew...
Some say the world is a beautiful place...
Others say it's hell...
Except for those who've seen this face...
There is no way to tell...
What is the truth about our ways?
Are we Savage and cruel?
Or is peace closer day by day
and everybody's cool?
To know how to solve the riddle you
must seek these people out...
To find folks out there like me too
see what this is about...
Find the "losers" of society
who won't give up the fight...
With open hearts they'll let you see
Just whats inside this light...
To see this world another way...
To look through troubled eyes...
And see this world is not so grey...
Beyond Cerulean Skies...
Even when we reach our prime...
There are courses we won't understand...
but few of us will take the time...
to stop and try to comprehend...
What happens when we go and decide?
Take the path and see it through...
What future have we cast aside...?
Few if any will ever construe...
The other choice they might have made...
Be it good, or be it bad...
In most people's minds the thought will fade...
And forget the influence that they had...
To change this world with what they've done...
Really big or very small...
The difference between the whole and the one...
Who will open his heart... and in darkness... stand tall...

A New Age... Part two

My newest piece... Take This assholes!(Before someone gets offended... That comment isn't referring to everyone...heheh... ^_^;;)

A New Age: Seeds of Corruption

Life continues… as time rolls by…
With a soul to share… and wings to fly….
Always searching for something new….
Worlds to create… and things to do…
This world to me is a beautiful place…
But evil lingers beneath it’s face…
Corruption’s hands stretch so high…
From lowest lake… to starry sky…
In the hearts of man this darkness hides…
When man goes fourth and shows these sides…
The kindest soul can turn on you…
And take your heart and pierce it through…
This world is caught in violent debate...
They think they rattle the chains of Fate…
A society ravaged by hate and lust...
By abuse and drugs... by actions unjust...
Look down below society’s line...
The people on the bottom of the grapevine...
What happens to them if they wish to fly?
Their wings are broken... and some of them die...
From the cruelty and hate from the world up above...
While the rest down there have hearts filled with love...
But still we are ravaged... and still we are mocked...
Our worlds must be cloudy... and our paths are still blocked…
But still we will try to climb up those stairs…
Ignoring the insults… and returning the glares…
But I don’t see corruption when I look to their faces…
For we are the same in many many cases…
I look away from the anger, away from the hate…
For I am no longer bound by Fate…
No longer drowning in tears of despair...
I can see the people that existed there...
As I drifted through anger and cried to sleep...
Falling and falling into the deep...
Of the void that was making a pit in my soul...
And I would exist in that terrible hole...
I am a victim of corruptions child…
It took sanity… and made me run wild…
But now they see me another way…
Most of them are different today…
They see me as equal… they see me as me...
They see me as I want to be...
A lover... a Dreamer... a kid just like them...
Not a fool or a loser that they can condemn
But still some refuse to open their eyes…
And it is a shame that they won’t realize…
What I have become… and what I will be…
And the ideas and dreams they’d learn from me…
So go ahead and put me down…
Laugh in my face… push me to the ground…
You think you are winning… but you’re very wrong…
For I will still sing my Dreamer’s song…
I will rise up above you… and make you pay…
For the terrible things that you’ve done here today…
To you I may not be where I am…
Just the fool with the big mouth you continue to damn…
But I will assure you… your going to fail…
For I will still walk…and speak of my tale…
I could be on step one for all that you care…
But when I’m done everyone will want to be there…