The Chronicles of The Crimson Dreamer...
Sunday, April 21, 2013
25 Years: A Reflection
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
The Girl in My Dreams...
Anyway:
The Girl In My Dreams
Saturday, December 29, 2012
A Eulogy for a Grandfather
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Chosen Son of Fate
I'm not really sure where this came from. I had just finished writing a small piece about traveling that I was sort of satisfied with, and that lead me to starting this. It's nice to get back in touch with some of my older work, and this definitely accomplishes this. For the first time in a while, I was really paying attention to the rhythm of the piece as well, so I'm really happy with this one!
Chosen Son of Fate:
A day of reckoning has come…
Thou, oh chosen son of Fate…
Forever onward shall you go…
With hope of purpose in thy soul…
A thirst for love within this heart…
And Crimson Dream beyond these eyes…
A never ending tapestry…
A challenge faced forevermore…
This destiny now falls to you…
The man who weaves the Dreamer’s song…
A journey you must face alone…
If you still seek the wings to fly…
Go now with this blessed curse…
A story that will never end…
Yet through this, nor will it begin…
The dream forever unfulfilled…
The fallen, lost in crimson tears…
To rise again in emerald light…
And though this burden must be held…
Know this, Seeker of the truth…
Despite the hand of Brother Fate…
This story yet remains your own…
As much still lies ahead of you…
Your journey’s only just begun.
You see this world through emerald eyes…
It’s darkness, light, and all between…
The lost, forgotten and forlorn…
With all your hope, you shall redeem.
And with this strength that you now hold…
These falling souls will turn to you…
Through courage, I shall fight for them…
Through valor, they shall persevere…
Through honor, they shall sing my song…
Through wisdom, they shall know this name…
Through fire, justice shall be done…
And through these words, I shall decree:
There will be freedom, this I swear…
And peace shall span across this land…
This Crimson Dreamer doth declare…
The spread of darkness too, shall end…
A dreamer only by my name…
As I now heed the heroes’ call…
And I shall be their champion…
The long heralded son of Fate…
Friday, September 02, 2011
Traveller
Here I wander…
There I go…
A nomad of the modern day…
What is it I seek?
Something different?
Something new?
Perhaps new faces?
Old Friends?
Broader horizons?
Bright lights?
The City…
The Country…
Mountains High…
And Oceans Deep…
A journey…
An adventure…
My destinations are many…
But the journey is always the same…
Here I wander…
There I go…
The lonely drifter down an empty road…
Yet friends all always waiting…
When journey’s end is reached…
These eyes have seen so much…
The places I’ve explored…
On distant lands…
And faraway shores…
By land..
By Sea…
And Air alike…
Here I wander…
There I go…
Always trying to get there…
Wherever there may be…
It always seems so far away…
And yet…
Here I wander…
There I go…
The journey always takes me there…
And when the final step is taken…
It’s always worth the trip…
There becomes here…
And the journey begins again…
Here to There…
There to Here…
Always the traveller…
Here I wander…
There I go…
Monday, August 15, 2011
Words
Gathering dust in the far reaches of the mind…
A dream not lost…
Not forgotten…
Only set aside…
For a moment like this one…
The Dreamer has changed since those days…
Nearly a year has passed since these pages were turned…
As trend becomes tradition…
These words…
What exactly do they mean to him?
What value does he put in them…?
Words that he once greatly cherished …
Now they seem to drift away…
A fleeting memory…
He has faced his struggles without them…
Seen hardship…
Burdened with pain…
And yet only now does he return to his words…
His greatest weapon…
His strongest defense…
What is it now, that he feels in his heart?
Betrayal?
Deception?
Emptiness?
It is all, and yet none of these things…
For he has held these words for all his life…
And truly lived with none of them…
His path has changed… if only slightly…
Though he flies a similar banner…
Purpose fills his heart…
Even if it is seen as trivial…
This holds great value to him…
He still battles those same demons…
The same curses as always…
Though he is not bound by them…
Nor does he feel that he his…
They continue to follow him…
Through yet another age…
The darkness is always looming…
Waiting for a chink in the armor…
A moment of weakness…
Yet his hope remains true…
As it always has…
The dreamer has faith in himself…
The path he walks…
And the dream he still follows…
And the battle he is always fighting…
Not in body…
But deeply in mind…
What would this world think…?
If they could only see…
What lies behind those emerald eyes…
A world undiscovered
A story still untold…
Even as the pages slowly begin to turn…
Once more, these words return to him…
Once more, these words have power in them…
In a way, they represent so much…
All that he is…
All that he has been…
And All that he dreams to be…
They are his past…
They can be his future…
There is so much potential here…
Untapped, yet unwasted…
These words…
They will take him far…
These words that come from his hands…
These words that come from his heart…
The pages turn again…
The dream survives another year…
And if only for a moment…
The Crimson Dreamer has returned…
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Moment...
I went for a walk and came across the Winooski River. It's something I used to drive over every day, but I've never found the time to come down to the actual river itself. Seeing as I was in the area I figured I'd go see it. I ended up finding a nice spot to just sit and think... and from there everything just seemed to come into focus. I had written something earlier in the day to vent, and I wasn't too happy with it. It was just uncessarily angry, and didn't really seem to go anywhere. After having a bit more time to process, as well as resolving several things throughout the day. I came up with this. I was tired and the original version of this was a bit fragmented, so I went back and touched it up and now I have this.
Moment...
In the cold of a winter morning…
My travels have lead me to a river…
The water rages below…
And snow slowly begins to fall…
Something has drawn me to this place…
As I gaze upon these waters…
I wonder to myself…
I stand here now:
A man defeated…
With an aching heart in these hands…
And upon my sleeve…
My mind is lost…
Searching for the words to speak...
Yet, what is left to say…?
My eyes have truly been opened this day…
The puzzle has become clear:
A lonely road continues…
Another horizon I must cross…
To find my star in the sky…
I watch the fury of nature below me…
In the midst of the toil in my head…
One thought emerges from the chaos…
“Why…?”
My grandest of questions…
My oldest of riddles…
Why can’t I escape this fate…?
Why don’t I deserve freedom…?
Why must this struggle live on…?
Those who’ve heard my story know…
I have stood here before…
Time and Time and Time again…
“Why?” I ask myself…
It is this, my greatest of virtues…
And my most fatal of flaws…
My grand naivety…
My faith in humanity…
I strive to see what’s good…
In the hearts of mankind…
My thoughts have echoed unto this world…
For years now...
Yet, here I am…
A single voice…
In an empty room…
Is there truly no one else…?
Who sees this world…
The way I do?
Faces race across my mind…
Thoughts of friends…
And those I’ve kept close to my heart…
Surely one would stand with me…
Yet none stand from the rest…
I wonder to myself…
Does this world hold such a place…
For a Dreamer…?
For someone like me…?
…
No…
This cannot be…
For I am standing here...
Holding onto this moment…
As the snow gently falls…
Upon this mighty river…
This glimpse of time may be all I have…
But it I can call my own…
No matter how small it may be…
As it fades into the next…
I will find myself another…
Another moment to hold…
Another heart to seek…
Another dream to forge…
Again… And Again… and Again…
I will do what must be done…
Until I’ve found my place…
My purpose…
My peace…
Like this river below me…
I will endure…
As I always have…
Since my beginning…
I shall persevere…
As the seasons change…
And time drifts ever ahead…
The wind howls…
My thoughts interrupted…
The sound of footsteps…
Slowly closing in…
A friend approaches…
It is time…
To heave a heavy sigh…
And let everything go…
My moment has come and gone…
And now I know what must be done…
Here I go…
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Somewhere...
So I'm not sure what got me going with this one. It started off as something I've daydreamed about when I hear a particular song, and then just took off from there. I'm happy with it though. I seem to have gotten a bit of my creative spark that I thought I lost. This is probably the most active I've been with writing in a LONG LONG time...Somewhere
I stand here now…
Gazing across the horizon...
As the sun sets on this day...
Brilliant colors dance across the sky...
As the sun gives way to an evening glow...
The wind blows gently across my face...
My gaze never faltering...
One by one the stars begin to shine...
Billions of lights...
Shining through the darkness...
People come and gaze with me...
And sooner or later they leave...
Some will stay and tell their stories...
Others disappear in a heartbeat...
Yet, one by one…
They all seem to drift away…
Does no one see what I see...?
Do they not grasp the grandeur?
Do they not see me standing here?
Do they even hear me...?
Is there anyone out there…?
Who sees this world…
The way I do…?
Will I ever find another…
Who sings the Dreamer’s Song…?
A question…
Born from a desire to love…
Yet forged into a quest for knowledge…
So that one day one may understand…
The life of which I’ve lived…
So much has happened…
In my existence here…
I’ve watched the world changed…
I’ve seen the rise of History…
And with all the good upon this earth…
Corruption echoes…
Evil Lingers…
And human nature takes its toll…
And though so much has gone awry…
I still see a world so beautiful…
Behind my emerald eyes…
I still dream of changing this world…
And seeking my final destiny…
But where is it that I will find my strength…?
To leave my mark in time…
There is so much fear in the unknown…
So much doubt in the uncertainty…
A plain I have known all too well…
But even in my short life…
I’ve found answers…
One way or another…
Looking around I ask myself…
Why do I tell these tales…?
If no one will listen…?
Why do I sing these songs…?
If there is no other to join me…?
Why do I love this world…
And all of its people…?
If they do not love me…?
I will never know…
But as long as my heart continues to beat…
I will not give up on these people…
I will not lose hope in this world…
I will not fall again…
It is so beautiful…
The stars upon a Crimson Sky…
I still dream of the day…
That I will find my wings to fly…
So much has been forgotten…
But the story still beats in my heart…
My Journey…
My Legend…
My Legacy….
And so the story goes…
I will wait as long as I must…
Upon this ever changing earth…
Until someone will hear my song…
Or until my brother calls me home…
You have to be out there…
Somewhere…
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Identity
On that Note: After 6 and a half years writing on here I feel like it was time to update the layout...
I think it looks sleeker = D
Anyway...
Identity
Throughout my journey upon this earth…
Through answers found, and questions forged…
Long have I pondered in my existence...
The question of Who…
Just who am I?
A question so simple…
Yet the answer I seek lies deep within my soul…
I am a man of many faces…
I am a wearer of many hats…
All of which are the culmination of the Who…
Yet which is it that truly defines me?
Is it I, the Champion?
The Soldier…?
The cunning warrior on the battlefield…
Fighting for my freedom?
Or is it I, the Name?
The simplest of choices…
Yet surely, I am more than just the man…
I want to be more than just my name…
Perhaps it is I, the Sage?
Keeper of guidance…
Passing my wisdom to those who seek it…
Searching for the truth?
Could I be… the Dreamer…?
Forging my Legacy in the depths of my being…
Seeking a way to unlock my mind…
And truly show this world my song…
Here I am only a few…
Yet even still, I can be so much…
I’ve sought to be a billion names…
Among a million faces…
Yet can I find myself in just the one?
Which of my voices is it that speaks from the heart…?
Which of my eyes gazes upon the beauty of this world…?
Which of my hands have forged the life that I now live…?
All of these…
And none of them…
The Culmination of all…
Different lives, all claiming one soul…
A warrior fighting a never-ending struggle.
A dreamer, always on the verge of tomorrow…
A storyteller who has yet to craft his masterpiece…
A player battling for victory…
A guide striving to be a hero to someone…
A hopeful romantic with love in his heart…
A man seeking more than just his name...
A child looking for a friend on a lonely road…
I am more than just a man…
I am greater than the sum of my parts…
Every face…
Every title…
Every name…
C.Malzinka…
Chrono H…
H. Dynedockia…
Matthew C…
All are fragments of the whole…
All are voices in this chorus…
Pieces of my grand design…
Forgers of the never-ending dream…
That is my Crimson Legacy…
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Dear Brother
This piece is a homage to that based on some things that have been going on lately. However, this has been more of it venting exercise than a woeful situation.
What I'm essentially trying to say is. I generally write now-adays from being triggered into something, rather than in direct response to my life experiences (I suppose this statement is half-true) So don't be surprised if it's out of context, generally my work tends to be hyperbolized when it comes to emotions.....
Well I'm rambling so here!
Dear Brother
From the moment my eyes first opened, I have cursed my dreaded brother, Fate. Long throughout my life he has tormented me. Fate, a presence that every man has learned to fear, for with that name comes the fear of what lies ahead, and the terrible, yet inevitable outcome that awaits each and every one of us. Even from my own perspective, my brother has been objectified with many faces. From the beginning of my journey, I had felt his presence; binding me to a life of misery. It was sorrow and pain that set me on my journey, and no matter how valiant my efforts were I could not escape the grasp of my cursed brother; Bound… By Fate. Much of my life was spent in fear, and in agony from this one certainty, and as time pressed onward I would fight, stumble, and submit; Submit… to the will of Fate.
For years I pondered alone at night. Gazing up into an empty sky, desperately searching for a star, a light, anything that could bring hope into a hopeless life. For many nights I waited, and waited, and no stars would shine for me. I found myself lost in a void of my thoughts; endlessly searching through an empty world. I made my strides, my leaps and bounds, so close that I thought I could fly… Yet no matter my cause, or my reason I could not escape; Escape… The Chains of Fate. For a long time I suffered… with no way to defend myself… but all was not lost, as one day I would find the strength to break free, but I would need somewhere to prepare. And I found my upper hand. With the love that beat in my heart I would find the hope to persevere. And in the Sanctuary of my mind… I could never be beaten…
In this world, my brother is not seen, yet he is a presence that none can deny.
No man has claimed to see Brother Fate, but his deeds are forever known. Yet, in the minds eye, he can be tangible, physical. It is here that he could be defeated… and it is here that I could have the power to fight him…And so the Clash began. I fought for freedom, I fought for peace, and while outside of these delusions of grandeur I gained no ground. I found something I had lost for a long time… I had hope.
I’ve written of my struggles in other places. I’ve written of the people that have come and gone from my life; those that have joined, and left, my path. Yet throughout my travels it has been Brother Fate who always stood near. It would take years for me to finally see the truth that was my brother. Through the fear of many, a symbol of doom, a sign of death, sorrow, and grief. A sign of what was to come, and what cannot be redesigned. Yet now, after all this time has passed. I now see, that my brother wears many faces. We all shall meet with our Brother someday. And while that may be inevitable, the path that leads us to him is not. Fate cam be made, Fate can be Forged. And the reins can be taken by the hands of men. We do not have to fear him. I do not have to fight him. Not anymore…
It has taken a decade of suffering, of pain, of sorrow, of joy, of wonder, and of amazement to truly open my eyes. All of the woe, and misery that I have experienced, coupled with all my precious memories, have forged me into the man you see before you. The Fire still burns in my eyes, and the battle still wages from within. I will never stop fighting, because it is that fight that brings me hope, and the resolve to never give up. And though we’ve had our sibling rivalry, I owe all to my Dear Brother…